Post number 400. What irony and what a circumstance to post this under.
Guess why I never disagreed when my friends or freshies call me a bare fellow? I totally agree that I'm cui and suck at times. Shu Wen once said, "Nobody agree that he lousy one la!" The nonchalant reply from me came, "But I just did." Guess why I like to mutter "fucked up" under my own breath at times. Scolding myself. Seng Tuck heard it once and gave me a puzzled look.
That I couldn't agree more that's why I tend to dwell on my past mistakes and regret on many things I did or never did. It's just the way I was made to think or function. Strong words written in a moment of folly doesn't constitute to how strong I feel about something really. Using the word fuck which I usually don't blog with is just a figure of speech as someone once said. Once again no excuses for my poor tone but certainly no underlying meaning or any negative connotations to be inferred from my previous post really.
Right now, my feelings about it is nuaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. It's not something that I couldn't care less but it's just something that's neutral to me now. It matters to me for certain but it takes time to handle such things. And thus, I won't rush. I might have been misunderstood and rightly so as I have presented myself in such a poor manner. No excuses, Edwin. You are really pretty poor eh. Haha.
I know what is the biggest regret of my life thus far. Not being able to keep my relationship. But it's all well in the past right now. It doesn't quite matter to me anymore. I just want to keep the friendship ya? One may ask me how can I just let it be like this. 因为无时无刻我只想你快乐。Bah...can't wait for tang to upload the pic I took of the lyrics flashing for Jay to see during his concert.
Yep so the previous post was terrible especially when it kind of gave the wrong vibes and idea. It was just some ranting that stemmed off the impatience of me when I'm tired.
I'm writing this with body ache from flag, headache and a terrible tummy ache throughout the whole day plus a bit of a heartache due to the previous post. Yes so please no hard feelings about it...I believe that there's never an absolute in life. Especially my own views. I leave leeway for the other side of the story to unfold. Has been like this and will always be like this.
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