Feeling damn tired...go play socer come back a lot of injuries sia...shin kena rammed straight sia...go some red brusie but not that bad la...my old injury came back...die sia...that one really killer. The hips and thigh there wah kao...pain sia...a bit problem walking but not as bad as the last time...this time thumb also kena. Starting kena pushed to the gate then got this gash on my left thumb. Quite irritating injury...wah but really damn tired.
Then Joshua asked for badminton tomorrow...dono whether going cos if my leg really cannot tomorrow then cannot play lo...
Wah this week busy sia...everyday not at home...heh...then Thursday is the EDC campfire...dono what gonna happen, something tells me it won't be that good...
Feeling damn lousy ya...sick man... ...Hanz got some big prob ya I know...I understand how he feels la...must take things easy...it's difficult yes but well...relax a little k, we'll always be here to support you bro.
Fly Away
这一次 是我自己为自己下的决定
很小心 你说慢慢来别怕来不及
如果我 还有一点点不安或者迟疑
我不会 对你的反应那么好奇
落叶啊 其实也很不愿意
其实也不想回忆 谁没等到错过了流星
我们啊 交集在这意外的假期
一定哪里见过你 一定曾经梦见你
fly away 无穷无尽是你深邃的眼睛
看着你 就可以让我茫茫人海里感到安定
fly away 当我不顾一切无止尽追寻
有一个人 有一颗心 早已经默默之中在那里
(是你的人 是你的心 日日夜夜陪我在这里)
这一次 问我自己都说我毫不怀疑
爱上你 终于我发现我还有勇气
唯一我 觉得遗憾的是我不够仔细
不了解 你说那一些话的用意
几乎是 所有时间在想你
快乐之后是压抑 有没有过这样的呼吸
幸福啊 只要一个眼神的交集
我们拥抱着刺激 我们渴望着相遇
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Hmz...just submitted form for VI programme...don't know much about it yet though.
Yesterday went to movies yeah and my parents are saying I spending a lot...not that much ba...and I also not always go out one lo...ah nvm. Watched The Incredibles...alright la the show, some people say until it was damn good...quite entertaining I must say but not to that extent la.
Aiyo quite sian ah...daily routine la hah...wanna go take up some courses too but well...must see first la but once VI comes I think not so free liao got AOP and stuff, quite sickening in fact. But Jianfu sir said not much to do thenv ery simple and stuff then won't regret joining ya...don't knoe about it la, just join and see see, hopefully not that bad. Actually don't really intend to do much at hq if I become vi...heh...
Mwahahz...later going for soccer yet again heh...better not get injured again...somehow I have a feeling my right thigh will get owned again...hope not la...better not k...lol...
Actually I feel quite screwed myself haha...
只能抱着你
好想这样抱着你 我知道你有些在意
给他伤了心 才想到可以找你
好想这样抱着你 我知道你现在伤心
想有人陪你 只是如此而已
你知道 我明了 抱着你 我(你)的泪 却为他而掉
你知道 我明了 抱着你 温习拥抱
你知道 我明了 抱着你 我的心有些动摇
你有的好 他做不到(他有的好 我做不到)
还想他(也许他) 可能等我回家(等你回家)
在我们(你们)相识的楼下 还想他(也许他)
可能拨我电话(拨你电话)留话 还爱他(你爱他)
我从没怀疑过(没怀疑过) 今晚心底的挣扎
我不说你明白吗
只能这样抱着你 我知道你有些在意
给他伤了心 才想到可以找你
只能这样抱着你 我知道你现在伤心
想有人陪你 只是如此而已
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Sunday, November 28, 2004
无与伦比的震撼力!!!WOO-HOO!!! Incomparable to Jay!! Okay that translation really sucks but the concert rocks man!! Damn shiok, damn good. But I'll start from yesterday la cos didn't blog heh...
Yesterday actually intended to go for the VSRCCU training but woke up in the morning then couldn't really walk properly cos my right thigh and hips there very pain, barely limping even...yeah so I wasn't able to go to school. Really sorry dudes, cos I heard some of you expecting me. Very sorry, next training I'll definitely be there k? Talking about training, due to the damned 5 day week trainings scheduled on Wednesdays...how to go sia, we still got lessons...so become VI a little redundant but nevertheless I'll still give it a shot la, hopefully can be of some use at least...
Yeah...but at least today not so bad, can walk around quite normally...phew...that was good then morning go Ben's house liao and chiongz heheh...Well...a day of pure slacking for me...well, tell me which day isn't lol...Went to look at his leet anime collection...managed to borrow his Hunter X Hunter, Getbackers and Elfen Lied series...damn cool sia, got lotsa things to watch liao...won't so boring mwahaha...
Go his house always so shiok one heh...fun somemore lea...but once again forgot to get his FFT...next time la...haha...But then gonna sign up for VI programme so guess I'll still be quite busy with it ba...hopefully no AOP lo...if got can cry...totally...
Before going to the concert went to Toa Payoh there and look around yes got Ben 5 books of PoT for the discount he gave me heh...Then went to the concert lo...waited for super long sia...at least 45 min before it started...
The concert was superb, magnificent, spectacular, excellent, outstanding, splendid, wonderful, fabulous, fantastic and every word I can use to describe it man...the props used were really pretty good and then his costumes were rather decent as well. The songs, were as usual excellent as well, but the voice quality a little blurred during some parts of the concert. He also forget some lyrics lol...quite obvious la but he can always make it up with some slurring(??).
Got those special guests ya...Landy and Nan Quan Ma Ma, pretty decent performance but I really liked the part that guy played the piano with Jay...omg...that was absolutely, pure "proness"!! They play like free leh, super duper fast sia...The flame, embers, sparks whatever you call them, quite nice also la although every concert also have. He also brought his own piano from Taiwan to the Singapore Indoor Stadium just to play a few songs, really cool. The encore was good also la...came out twice but actually I think was sorta expected la. Sang along with him ya really great feeling, feel so hyped up until now can't really get to sleep heh...
Well, there was this group of Canadian girls behind me, I think they flew all the way here to see his concert or something? He so pro sia, can even attract Europeas sia...Omg...Jian Fu sir say he was just one row behind me during the concert...didn't see him at all >_<...can't believe it man. But he said it was not bad only...well, personal preference I guess.
开不了口
才离开没多久就开始 担心今天的妳过得好不好
整个画面是妳 想妳想的睡不着
嘴嘟嘟那可爱的模样 还有在妳身上香香的味道
我的快乐是妳 想妳想的都会笑
没有妳在我有多难熬(没有妳在我有多难熬多烦恼)
没有妳烦我有多烦恼(没有妳烦我有多烦恼多难熬)
穿过云层 我试着努力向妳奔跑
爱才送到 妳却已在别人怀抱
就是开不了口 让她知道
我一定会呵护着妳 也逗妳笑
妳对我有多重要 我后悔没 让妳知道
安静的听妳撒娇 看妳睡着 一直到老
就是开不了口 让她知道
就是那么简单几句 我办不到
整颗心悬在半空 我只能够 远远看着
这些我都做得到 但那个人已经不是我
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Thursday, November 25, 2004
Wah...today go Kolam Ayer CC to play soccer. That place must be cursed sia...last time sec 2 and sec 3 that time play there always calf and hamstring pain...today my thigh strain kao...take the ball and ram once kena liao but originally was injured liaoz. A lot of casualties today sia...
Jeremy starting calf cramp liao...and he was the one who booked the court...still got Jun Xian...I think he down with fever or something...Sanjay go in there immediately fall down then left leg got some abrasion injury...Laiguang said he was feeling sick playing after his lunch...kao...fierce lea, half of the people playing on casualty list...
Then today I also play a bit nia...play one and a half games...2nd match was like whole team injured...quite pathetic and down one men also. Jeremy the worst sia...can't even stand...then play halfway begin to rain... ...nothing to say liao...
The rain pretty heavy, then we stay in the CC talk cock for damn long...talk everything sia...but quite fun la...say a lot of stuff, then start trying out those tricks heh...Aiyoh the CC the food might as well not sell, no rice no noodles...a lot of crappy snacks though...
Tomorrow should be going for the training...dono whether can wake up not...think just go la ah...
Need some deep heat...later then apply...think much better liao though...mwahaha...crazy guy...looking forward to Saturday will be damn good
如果有一天
现在也只能欣赏 唯一的合照一张
淡忘了的是那个街角 想念的是当时的微笑
生活中交错失望 越想念就越孤单
若再被寂寞迎头赶上 多感伤原来只是正常
你是不是也在品尝 一个人的咖啡和天光
是不是也忽然察觉到 多出时间看天色的变换
如果有一天 我们再见面
时间会不会倒退一点 也许我们都忽略
互相伤害之外的感觉
如果哪一天 我们都发现
好聚好散不过是种遮掩 如果我们没发现
就给彼此多一点时间
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Wednesday, November 24, 2004
...today went school for the PAE and take the stuff lo...then immediately come home cos no one wanna go out or anything...actually wanna play soccer but in the end decided not to...so a boring day at home again...I know what I want la but scared cannot go in nia, who ask me get so lousy results...Reyneth relax relax la...follow what your heart says heh...choose wisely though, do what you really want...anyway thanks for chatting with me bro.
Basket...Liverpool keep losing sia...like free. The Monaco match...shouldn't lose one sia...stupid. Hand of god...slap that Saviola la, cheater sia...stupid guy...sack the referee...damn dumb. But seriously if Liverpool scored a goal like that I wouldn't complain at all...Aiyo, they better buck up man...league maybe gone liao, champions league at least get to Quarters...don't like that kena booted out. Can make it one la, but always same prob, cannot convert chances...Days of Kewell magic sorta gone liao...but he got archilles injury la, hopefully if he recover he can get back his form also heh...hm...need Baros back but cannot only depend on him for goals, hopefully January transfer window open Benitez gets some decent goalscorer...best is if he can pull Aimar in sia...need some inspirational playmaker on our side...
Mwahaha...I'm mad...going for soccer tomorrow yeah...at old VS compound there...great memories lea...shiok sia...everything there still seems so fresh in my mind...sec 2 one maybe come another day ba...anyway now anyhow write first la...when really done up then save in a doc heh...
勇气
终于做了这个决定 别人怎么说我不理
只要你也一样的肯定我愿意天涯海角都随你去
我知道一切不容易我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃
爱真的需要勇气 来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定 我的爱就有意义
我们都需要勇气 去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉你放在我手心 你的真心
如果我的坚强任性 会不小心伤害了你
你能不能温柔提醒
我虽然心太急 更害怕错过你
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Tuesday, November 23, 2004
Sec 1: Entered Victoria School...didn't think much of it then. Well...my thinking changed so much throughout these years. This great institution brought ouot so much in the students...I'm grateful to be enrolled in VS...I'm sure it's definitely one of the best schools out there.
Can't really remember what happened then...ya...remember that time CCA recruitment day that time...didn't even know what I wanted. Then that time anyhow choose CCA ya...so just anyhow pick Red Cross lo...but it was really quite fulfilling in there...
Beginning was alright la...not say very good and stuff but still not too shabby...felt i was quite enthu la...actually sec 1 that time also nothing much to do...First was Jasper sir...very short time with them...after that came Alan sir...the committee very small la but I felt it was compact but enough to drive the unit on...
It's fun in there later, cos we stayed back to play basketball and soccer everytime then go out and have fun...
Oh yeah...got sec 1 orientation camp, seriously forgot what happened most of the time...remembered that 1A performed the banana dance ya...quite shitty I'd say. Set up the tents and stuff then I think 2nd night raining so everyone slept in the hall...other than that, can't really recall other things...
Still remember that time Mr Sng asked me to join high jump for track and field...I believe it was during napfa when he asked ba...he was taking me for standing broad jump ya...then after that pe lessons he sorta ask me to join...Zhi Yuan was in track also then he ask me go with him...but I just heck la, lazy to go and stuff...I wasn't interested then...come to think of it now...it was a wasted opportunity lo...a pity I didn't join...well...when you let an opportunity slip by, it may never return...
Sec 1...went for my first national cross country...could really feel the spirit in the older Victorians then...really impressive...the instructors and leaders were good also...the national track and field also showed the true Victorian passion in each and every Victorian...
The Victorian Spirit lives on...
对不起我爱你
没别的 只想说对不起 对不起 我真的爱你
不管你会怎么想 你怎么说 也不会改变我的决定
你知道 有时候感情事很难说 很难说 爱人或朋友
从前到现在 我真的感觉要 一想你 我的心就发烧
想给你听我的心跳 想你知道我睡的不好
喝水想着你 搭车想着你 阖眼闭眼间 出现的全是你
我猜不到你的表情 我等不到你的回应
不想难为你 又不想放弃你 决定告诉你 对不起对不起 我爱你
没别的 只想说对不起 怎么样 我都会珍惜
不管你会怎么讲 你怎么做 也不会影响我的心情
你知道 有时候男孩更难捉摸 难捉摸 爱人或朋友
现在到永远 我真会感觉要 一想你 我的心就狂跳
我的模样记不记的牢 情人卡有没有收到
读书想着你 听歌想着你 大地和蓝天 出现的全是你
我才不管你的表情 我才不理你回不回应
不想难为你 又不想放弃你 决定告诉你 对不起对不起 我爱你
你听一听我的心跳 你看一看我睡的不好
喝水想着你 搭车想着你 阖眼闭眼间 出现的全是你
我猜不到你的表情 我等不到你的回应
不想难为你 又不想放弃你 决定告诉你 对不起对不起 我爱你
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Monday, November 22, 2004
...tired sia...past few days have some difficulty sleeping...Just now went out to watch Taxi at Suntec...saw a lot of familiar people...wah...dono why all go suntec sia...Taxi damn funny sia...funny to the max. That guy sibei funny, buay tahan...laughing like mad in the cinema. Was watching with Hanz la. That BT and KT both last minute dowan come damn qiang. Anyway went out a while nia, at least I bought my bag...not a wasted trip.
Looking forward to chalet sia but not looking forward to buying the stuff super ma fan leh...sianz...then in the end bbq sure everyone make a mess then have to clear up...hope got no lamers anyhow lame around and screw the whole thing up lo...
So much time has passed since graduation day...my tribute slowly write first la, then next time then post ba...should have some length in it...dono also...
黑白画映
收拾下自己的心 说给自己听
那黑 那白 全都不在 那风 那梦 风吹熄我的梦
收拾下自己的心 好让天使听
那黑 那白 全都不在 那风 那梦 风吹进我的梦
无力抱紧 抱着又伤心 偶而想起我爱妳
想追又自己鼓不起勇气 我心中黑白
无力靠近 猜测妳的心 今夜又会在那里
窗外的风起天下起小雨 我心中 黑白的画映
(的画映 的画映)
我无力找真爱 可怜我只想空白
找不到靠近理由 也只能开不了口
静静的我守在窗口 享受这寂寞
无力证明 但愿妳想信 有个傻子在想妳
在想妳和我楼梯间相遇 我心中黑白的画映
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Hm...yesterday a lot of things happened sia, super funny...haha...anyway it was quite embarassing for me la, a lot of people commented on me ya...even people I didn't know ya...
Yeah...then during the dinner was like sitting with my cousin's secondary school friends...a bit what eh...no relevance with us...no la no space on other tables ma. They very sociable la but also quite embarassed to talk with them la...
After the thing end then really damn funny haha...especially my 4th uncle...always damn funny and got those kindda lame things happen then things get very rowdy hahz...actually would've really enjoyed things if not for my state yeah...
Dono when their trainings...forget liao, so if Mark or anyone got read hor, pls tag and tell me your training dates and time hor, cos I wanna see ya, thanks a lot...
无能为力
醒了 我却还是比较宁静 只有这样才能留住梦境
还看着我最爱的眼睛 还有妳偷偷亲吻我的情境
醒了 我都不会睁开眼睛 是怕泪水慢慢吞噬心情
原以为我们有了约定 就能够听见朋友祝福的声音
还来不及和妳 和妳在一起 数着天空里聚落的星星
妳已经离我而去 爱没有继续 原来我根本不是妳的唯一
我紧闭双眼屏住呼吸 根本就不敢在夜里想妳
谁知道在白天遇见了妳 看见你新的唯一靠在妳怀里
我流乾眼泪不能呼吸 我无法面对最後这个结局
曾经我们有过无数话题 爱到最後我们对爱竟会无能为力
(谁会想到曾经相爱的人 还未到最後 我们已经对爱
无能为力)
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Sunday, November 21, 2004
Eheh...today my cousin's wedding...so morning went to her house to see the tea ceremony...basket...went so early in the end waited 2 hours sia...waste time...but it was quite crowded ya...and got to see my cousins ever since dono when la, long time liao...very tired...both physically and mentally...yesterday injuries now aching...cool sia...whole of next week don't think I'll be at home much except for night, go out, play soccer, go back VS see their trainings and stuff...packed lea heheh...
Feeling very tired now...later still must go for the dinner at dono what hotel la...damn qiang sia, my cousin tomorrow got exams today hold wedding lea...very pro...nothing to say lo...looking forwad to next Saturday mwahahaz...Jay's concert...damn shiok. Aiyo...not sure when ACOC and VIP and also dono how to join...I think it should be pretty soon...
无条件为你
爱你等于拥有一片天空
任何风吹草动
都有你存在其中
自然而然的轻松
一路到夏天的尾声
我所谓到过于激动
我们有笑容 我们曾心动
不再是无动于衷
无条件为你不顾明天的安稳
为你变坚强相信你的眼神
不敢想不敢问
有一天坏的可能
无条件为你放弃单独的旅程
为你坚强就不怕牺牲
我的灵魂 如此沸腾
为我爱的人
喜欢复杂还是习惯单纯
我愿尽力完成
你在我心中几分
难以形容的责任
爱一个人付出才会完整
无条件 越爱就越深
永远不分 啊...
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Saturday, November 20, 2004
Realised that dono why my number of posts seem to be stuck at 129 lea...aiyoh anyway today morning go play soccer woohoo...quite dumb, I brought two jerseys there...a bit lame. Anyway played for a few hours only then very tired liao...no stamina ah...must train my fitness man...
Played about 4 matches la, mwahaha...my team won all four games...every game switch team one heh...my feet kena stepped on damn a lot of times...my calf and shin also kena whack like free sia...then my thigh also kena...everytime like that one sia...now whole body aching cos never warm up or cool down...
Tired...need more sleep ya...fun la but then tired ya lol...Malcolm say wanna play activities for chalet...he a bit mad...let him do it la lol...since he wants...anyway go there for fun and stuff ma no real need to plan anything...
我也很想他
那时我们总有好多话 什么事都可以讲
我的爱情比你早 却一直放在心上
后来你们之间的变化 我不想再多说话
经过了相遇和挣扎 我还是无法将他放下
那是多久后的事了 有一天你突然问我
在那个时候 是否也爱着他
我也很想他 我们都一样 在他的身上
曾找到翅膀 只是那时的他 是因为你他开始飞翔
我也很想他 在某个地方 我少了尴尬 你少了肩膀
而夏天还是那么短 思念却很长
还记得 那年我们三个许下的愿望
星星骗了我们 我们却因此上了一课
成长必修的学分
我们都一样
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Friday, November 19, 2004
...o's over at last...don't exactly feel excited about it la...anyway...before the paper...saw the red cross peeps at school gate there then chatted a while and stuff la...they gave me the photos and ya that's all lo...they have some farewell party for marcus cos he going TJ, then by the way do for us also, so unsincere heh...
After the paper went out lo...went orchard road...I was unusually quiet...really quite silent la, don't know what to say, don't know what to do...
...feeling very tired...feeling totally shattered ya...worse than ever...anyway tomorrow playing soccer with classmates mwahaha...never touch the ball for damn long liao, tomorrow must find back my touch hohoho...damn shiok sia...
道别之后，我转过角落头，呆呆的坐下来了一会儿……想着刚才自己所说的一切……真地感到自己非常草率。不一会儿，眼眶开始有点湿湿的感觉想说的一个字都没说到，不该说的就有一堆。说过之后，不必听到答复，我也已经知道了。看到了她的表情和动作，我已知道自己并没那么幸运。上天从未眷顾过我。即使自己早已为最坏的状况做准备，我的心还是不禁地感到一阵阵的痛。感到自己好白痴……偏偏说了一大堆废话。走着走着,雨点一滴一滴轻轻的落到我身上,宛如眼眶留下的泪一滴一滴重重地刺伤自己的心,真的感觉好痛好痛。现实对我实在太残酷了。感到自己的失落，自己的伤痛，自己的无能。也许是我想太多了，自己根本就配不上她。呵呵，我不得不笑自己。笑着自己的愚昧，自己不自量力。我未免太逊了吧，一直以来在欺骗自己，告诉自己有机会，却又不敢面对现实。直到现在我才意识到自己的脆弱，自己的天真。有时真的觉得或者并没什么意义。可是我看我是决不会放弃的吧。接下来的歌词真的写出我自己的心声与承诺和我所想对她说的一切。
当一切经过还跟着妳的是我
当妳觉得什么都没有
别忘记我的心放在妳手中
当泪水流过还陪着妳的是我
当所有人都穿过头
别忘记有我会听妳一直到最后
地心引力
只要妳一笑 我就又都不介意 妳对我任性
我竟然还觉得荣幸 不在乎爱情 会是自由的天敌
根本已经为妳失去我平常的冷静 虽然我还不擅长
幸福这种东西 可是我真的很想 把所有妳要的
都放在妳的手心
爱像地心引力 无法抗拒 一吋一吋 深深的被妳吸引
心碎也没关系 等待也都愿意 人群之中我只能看见妳
爱像地心引力 没有空隙 一天一天 不见妳也在想妳
我在妳的眼里 重新认识自己 在妳面前原来微笑那么容易
我终于明白 那些孤单的夜里 寂寞的表情
是因为妳还没靠近 原来我愿意 为等一个人淋雨
是妳唤醒了我自己都不懂的深情 虽然我还不擅长
幸福这种东西 可是我真的很想 把所有妳要的
都放在妳的手心
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Tuesday, November 02, 2004
What can I say, one and a half subjects down...alright la, not too good but not too bad either...I hope.
Quite tired lea...sunday could hardly sleep then so tired. Yesterday really mug whole day, tired like mad, that's why could sleep soundly heh. Today...dono what I gonna do la but for english...hm...hahaz...
Feeling quite down yeah...anyone in my shoes would be the same ba...can't believe I'm still alright, must pull through man...don't know why can still laugh and joke with my friends. Well, some things are just not meant to be shown to others at all...heard weeping and crying sounds, should never matter to me anymore, but I couldn't help but care about it...felt really pain and twisted but don't know what I could've done ba...just hope things do get better...can never get over it so easily but life still goes on ya =)...stay strong.
距离
在距离三公里的位置 我在这里
想象心中的妳的呼吸 同样的熄着灯的窗子
妳在那里 听不到我呼吸着分离
我走向前 妳看不见 真的遥远
就连叹息 影子听见 也是无言
妳走向前 我看不见 妳的思念
妳和我之间 刻着一条界线 不曾有改变
保留着三公分的距离 我的眼里
填满着整个我爱的妳 坐在同一张四方桌子边
妳的眼里 读不到眷着我的讯息
当爱离开之前 能多苦 能多深 能多甜
距离是妳走过我身边
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