Whoa...today actually not bad...slept at 3.30 woke up at 11 plus...sleeping at 3 plus everyday after the prelims...slack a lot la but still got do some work...spirits quite dampened la...
Hm...went grandmother's house to sorta celebrate mid autumn festival ya...the irony is that I didn't even touch the main dish...yeah I touched no mooncakes...but don't really care ba...quite sick there, went there early nothing to do...brought some books to study just to appease my parents...izzit a right word to use...heck la.
Heh...played soccer at last...whoa last time was during PE...so nice to play with my cousins but only four people cos the older ones all go out and stuff ya...hm...miss the times when got more than four of us playing...quite a few years back...really quite pathetic though...then went to Punggol Plaza...sorta shopping centre, new one I think...not bad la, something like that within the estate, quite convenient...Went there my cousin bought sparklers heh...then buy drinks and stuff heh. Long time never play soccer so when got to play quite shiok actually...yeah.
Then parents keep pressing me to go home and study...hear already also can get sick...actually sorta wanna go play with sparklers ya...feel quite childish holding it haha. But then my parents dowan let me say wanna go home liao but grandmother ask me to go...felt like shit man...almost kicked the wall lea...anyway...I think her birthday in two weeks' time, gotta get her a present...
Aiyoh...could've been a more joyous day yep. Come home immediately kena nagged at and stuff, really getting on my nerves. Keep saying what one month more and stuff...one month more doesn't mean I'm a robot and can continuously hit the books...feeling so taxed under their constant pressure. Wanna do things at my own pace ba...anyway, not feeling so good ya...so many things, getting worried for my prelim results too...anyway good luck to the AEP people tomorrow...or rather today, especially Reyneth ;).
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Saturday, September 25, 2004
Ok...so many things have happened, the prelims and stuff, don't wanna think about it liao la, very badly done...lost quite a bit of confidence already..the papers got some really difficult...
Long time haven't blog liao, apparently I'm still able to use the com, yeah. Try no to use it though. Anyway one more month of hard work, very hard work, hopefully can get what I want ba...
Just can't stop sighing to myself. Feel like shit now. Don't know what to do either...and the problem doesn't lie within me. But don't think it'll ever matter cos I'm pretty much outta hope liao yeah, don't stand a chance at all!? I don't know, feeling so confused, so lousy.
Things hardly go the way we want. That's really true...Sigh...so many stuff here and there. For some reason I don't feel anything about getting back prelim results...not excited, neither am I nervous, why so calm...like some cold blooded guy you know...everyone else like so flustered, scared get called back on Monday and stuff...probably cos I'm inhuman!? Don't know, going crazy liao, yeah crazy...
Hope things can get better...good luck to all...
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