The last day of the year! Plenty of things happened this year for certain...both good and not so good haha.
Highlights of this year certainly wld be commissioning as an officer ya. Getting the sword, wearing the rank, holding tt bit more of responsibility (which has a lot in it LOL) yeah. Looking at my sword and the photos tt came with it...kinda missed wearing my No. 1 and No. 2 haha...quite comfy lea and yeah I tink nice leh and kinda smart too lol but oh well tt's all in the past. Will probably nv wear them another time tho hahz. But my time in NS has been good in the sense tt I made plenty of frens and knew a lot more ppl.
End of year gatherings was a huge plus plus along with the interesting xmas gift exchange and it was enjoyable to see frens tt I haven't met for quite sometime and a long time for a few.
Liverpool topping the table at New Year is just great. Absolutely stunning and deserved. Deserved a lot more tho haha. Sorta playing regular soccer weekly as well so I'm happy it's kinda going for me :)
New Year resolution? Probably to make myself a bit more sociable, improve my thinking ability and definitely make sound judgements and decisions. In short, to sharpen my blunt mind haha. Can't really tink of anything else but maybe to enjoy my uni life heh. Gotta mug hard tho.
It's been a tiring year, a bit of a roller coaster ride here and there...got it's highs and lows, certainly more highs than lows. All I've gotta say tt I'm kinda blessed and got not much reason nor am i really entitled to complain. But it's human to always want more no? ;)
Sometimes it's just good to not bother too much abt others ba...it'd just make yourself feel bad at times and yeah create unnecessary problems for yourself when you tink too hard too.
爱你等于拥有一片天空
任何风吹草动
都有你存在其中
自然而然的轻松
一路到夏天的尾声
无所谓到过于激动
我们有笑容我们曾心动
不再是无动于衷
无条件为你不顾明天的安稳
为你变坚强相信你的眼神
不敢想不敢问
有一天坏的可能
无条件为你放弃单独的旅程
为你坚强就不怕牺牲
我的灵魂如此沸腾
为我爱的人
喜欢复杂还是习惯单纯
我愿尽力完成
你在我心中几分
难以形容的责任
爱一个人付出才会完整
无条件越爱就越深
永远不分啊
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Sunday, December 28, 2008
Hm...so fast another year is ending le. For the past few years at this point of time, I've always felt tt I've grown, dono always have this feeling lol. For good or for bad, really no idea, but it kinda means I've been thru quite a bit with army and other stuff here and there.
Well I kinda realised the festive season at the end of the year is always the best time in the year haha. Yeah really really v nice. You know you get invited to ppl's place for xmas celebrations, meeting up literally with all my frens, at least the closer ones. Seriously haha...had a pri school class gathering like ytd. Way cool, was like finalised ytd morn and we got a number of ppl too haha 9 to be exact. I mean if it was more well organised it'd have been much better. Looking fwd to another one before the dudes fly off to aussie to study but really crossing fingers and hoping it doesn't clash with me going nz, it'd be hell if it does =/
Anywayz, meeting up with sec school frens is kinda common alr lol yeah our fantastic four hangs out kinda often heh but still considered no? Red Cross frens also ytd altho we meet up occassionally too hahz...got end of year gathering at yuching's place too. But v sad tt Zaidi's 21st clashes with Yueting so I kinda can't go for his =/ and we finally had a CTC gathering!! Damn cool haha altho attendance not so good.
Yes the JC class gathering as usual organised by me but delegated to others =P not quite occassional either, good to keep in contact and chat with each other tho hoho.
There's also the odd meeting up with closer frens here and there =) yeah glad we still keep in contact too.
Liverpool just owned Bolton and Newcastle and it cld've been a lot more. Period.
Overall vv good end of year for me but a bit of a prob is ppl tend to go overseas within this period so some gatherings not so many ppl but still nice to meet up with your frens now and then no?
Not withstanding some of the shit tt happened...not common tt I get pissed off here and there man hoho.
Retro but really nice.
闭上眼睛忍住呼吸
暂时要和世界脱离
就快要学会不再想你
却听见不断跳动的心
我允许了你
让爱的自由还给你
我允许了自己
承受这悲伤到天明
我不愿放弃却要故意默默允许
我答应自己爱你的心绝口不提
总是以为终究化作云淡风轻
爱你到底
痛了自己
我不愿放弃却要故意默默允许
我答应自己爱你的心绝口不提
所有结局在这夜里都已成形
爱到了底
痛的是我的真心
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Sunday, December 14, 2008
Eh...body really cui alr sia...play one game so much injuries le zzz but I gotta say it was a good game. Same team as the previous team we played but this time they were the ones chasing the game heh, had a stronger lineup for certain but it's due to the uber muddy pitch as well. Well I played pretty well running at the full backs but I know well wad I'm lacking man, gotta improve if not really jia lat lahz.
Right knee and quad plus left hip there all took blows, yeah damn sore now sia...hopefully faster recover ba...really needa beef up my fitness alr. Damn cui alr ahhhhh. Not disciplined enough to do the normal exercises to keep myself fit to a bare minimum at home. But when stay in camp I tend to be more hardworking for some reason hahz. Oh wellz...v tired sia...hope Chelski cui today also mwahaha.
Today really the end of my 2 week hols. Feel all civilain-like alr haha but still got some way before ord-ing man. Gotta keep working hoho. And still got nz too hm...only thing I can say is the pre-prep is like shit, says a lot when I know it's gonna be hell at the airport for certain even tho I'm not involved in any planning and what not, esp when I'm at home too haha. Too bad man really, sometimes I get kinda pissed off with the stupid things tt happen too. Yeah I'm really pissed with one idiot for quite some time alr.
人群中哭着
你只想变成透明的颜色
你再也不会
梦或痛或心动了
你已经决定了
你已经决定了
你静静忍着
紧紧把昨天在拳心握着
而回忆越是甜
就是越伤人了
越是在手心留下
密密麻麻深深浅浅的刀割
你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是
你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了
也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂
关在永远锁上的躯壳
这世界笑了
於是你合群的一起笑了
当生存是规则
不是你的选择
於是你含着眼泪
飘飘荡荡跌跌撞撞的走着
你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是
你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了
也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂
关在永远锁上的躯壳
你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯
完全的愈合
我站在你左侧
却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾
一直到老了
（然后才后悔着）
你值得真正的快乐
你应该脱下
你穿的保护色
为什麽失去了
还要被惩罚呢
能不能就让悲伤
全部结束在此刻
重新开始活着
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Saturday, December 13, 2008
On this day 2 years ago, I was kinda naive and young...dumb if I'd say it haha...taking things for granted and taking things a little lightly as well as thinking things in too much of a simplistic way. Two years down the road, I sometimes wonder how much have I changed and matured, either for good or for bad. Honestly 2 years is kind of a long time. Many things happened, trying times, tough times but there were great and happy moments too. Yeah it was mainly ns standing between now and then...I'm kinda fine with it tho.
I'm really unsure of how things are anymore. Yeah and I wonder how things are gonna advance in the future haha. The future is always full of uncertainty isn't it? Upon the closing stages of Liverpool vs Hull...yeah it was a draw and 2 bloody pts dropped but tt's another thing altogether ya zzz. It was an exhilarating game in the beginning, with 2 goals by Hull and then and 2 goals by Pool in quick succession. But as time wore on, as the seconds ticked by...I kinda felt a strangle on my neck ya...it seemed like Shikamaru's shadow strangling thingy, bit by bit it got tighter as the full time whistle drew nearer, no doubt we were attacking and all...maybe it was cos of the weight of expectations on the team but suddenly I wasn't enjoying the game anymore...and I somehow feel tt it kinda reflects my life in some way or another.
You know when one moment you're practically enjoying everything tt's going ard you and the next moment things just take a dip and the same things ard just look grey and dreary. Sometimes things just get tighter and you feel the hand grabbing your heart, making things a bit difficult for you. Be it expectations or anthing ba. I guess sometimes it's just the mood or "form" in your life for tt matter. Some days you probably just look into the mirror and your brain decides "ok I'm not gonna enjoy today no matter wadeva happens" or some sorta thing ya.
Not complaining abt the state of things right now. I'm definitely not entitled to complain for sure. Things are normal but sometimes normal is really a blessing no? Haha yeah really true however sometimes you nv get to realise it until abnormality begins to come your way.
Actually, I'm not so sure abt wad I'm saying or wad I'm gonna do with my life anymore...probably some of the stuff up there are just random ranting lol...but there's some kinda headway for sure but the uncertainty and the thot of being unsure if you're headed in the right direction is more often than not present ba...
你就是我的天使
保护着我的天使
从此我再没有忧伤
你就是我的天使
给我快乐的天使
甚至我学会了飞翔
飞过人间的无常
才懂爱才是宝藏
不管世界变得怎麽样
只要有你就会是天堂
像孩子依赖着肩膀
像眼泪依赖着脸庞
你就像天使一样
给我依赖给我力量
像诗人依赖着月亮
像海豚依赖海洋
你是天使你是天使
你是我最初和最后的天堂
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Wednesday, December 10, 2008
zomg...suddenly v tired everyday lea...slp so much still tired haha. Gotta buck up with my driving sia if not I tink can't complete before test date =\
最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息
(最怕此生已经决心自己过
没有你却又突然
听到你的消息)
想念如果会有声音
不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今
终於让自已属於我自已
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己
突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛
我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影
为什麽你
带我走过最难忘的旅行
然後留下最痛的纪念品
我们那麽甜 那麽美
那麽相信
那麽疯 那麽热烈的曾经
为何我们
还是要奔向各自的幸福
和遗憾中老去
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Tuesday, December 09, 2008
Hm...quite tired haha...had a less conventional weekend for myself ba lol. Yeah stayed over at Peng Rend's house on sat night, missed the Liverpool Blackburn game in the end =\ won in the end la so guess tt's wad tt matters. But I was playing the WoW boardgame. Quite fun sia...a bit of rpg element in it and all and also...ya but quest here quest there is the main thing lo, slowly lvl up then chiong pvp ya...so it was kind of a late night. played it for 7+ hours like wth man. Uber long seh. Well before tt had a 21 officers' gathering heh...not bad sia...got like 13 ppl who turned up. Quite a lot alr siah...
Yeah anywayz peng peng's house was like damn nice haha. Wii quite fun sia...a lot of action and all hoho. Really a v good family console, and also for slightly larger gatherings ba. Fun sia lol. WoW also fun heh. But really shack ah the next day when we woke up. Yeah kinda chiong-ed home to slp and then chiong out to Ben's house to stay over lol. Like wth man. Alright la but in the end he also a little unwell so just did my own stuff hehz. But was pretty fun for sure.
Saw part of the Everton Villa game, v interesting twist and turn in the dying few min. Feels a little nostalgic doesn't it? Haha.
Yeah nursing all kinds of injuries on myself. Lotsa physical dmg done to me in ns =\ tink I'm just a bit suay ba really...but I guess it's true tt time will heal all wounds, even physical ones no? Hahaz yeah hamstring and my wrist...dono if my knee still killing me but hope not ba.
You'll Never Walk Alone.
记忆深处的美好
星空还刻着你的微笑
数不清多少夜晚
她在你手心的记号
轻轻靠在我怀抱
闻你发丝淡淡的味道
怀念我们曾经
多么单纯的美好
过去的美好
我想有一天我们都能忘掉
想你的星空下
星星不再闪耀
我想我知道
眼泪的味道
曾经付出的每一天每一年
我不曾想逃
我想我知道
眼泪的味道
曾经付出的每一天每一年
我不曾想逃
受伤的翅膀
总有一天会慢慢
慢慢的变好
能飞得更高
当失去你的依靠
Don't wanna miss you
逝去的不能再留住
只是过往每个画面
都成为我们的束缚
对爱情的无助
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Thursday, December 04, 2008
Well I guess I've really opened my eyes now but some things just can't be helped no?
没别的只想说对不起
对不起我真的爱你
不管你会怎么想你怎么说
也不会改变我的决定
你知道有时候感情事很难说
很难说爱人或朋友
从前到现在我真的感觉要
一想你我的心就发烧
想给你听我的心跳 (你听一听我的心跳)
想你知道我睡的不好 (你看一看我睡的不好)
喝水想着你搭车想着你
合眼闭眼间出现的全是你
我猜不到你的表情
我等不到你的回应
不想难为你又不想放弃你
决定告诉你
对不起对不起我爱你
没别的只想说对不起
怎么样我都会珍惜
不管你会怎么讲你怎么做
也不会影响我的心情
你知道有时候男孩更难捉摸
难捉摸爱人或朋友
现在到永远我真会感觉要
一想你我的心就狂跳
我的模样记不记得牢
情人卡有没有收到
读书想着你听歌想着你
大地和蓝天出现的全是你
我才不管你的表情
我才不理你回不回应
不想难为你又不想放弃你
决定告诉你
对不起对不起我爱你
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Tuesday, December 02, 2008
Hm...well today was supposed to be a good day? Turned out alright, heard plenty of things and ya...dono if I'm overwhelmed by whatever happened, tired or wadever, some things tt shd've came out nv and some tt nv shd have just came out...nothing too bad or anything happened, which was good. Or maybe I was just a little emotionally affected and a little unwell.
Well......just tinking of plenty of what ifs and maybe just tinking too much...like wad Peter said when he read my palm a while back...i can really see tt all he said was true and wad was foreseen cld well be true too.
Haven't ever felt as helpless as I was, really. So many things tt I wanted to do but I just feel I'm not entitled and lack the capacity to do so, which kinda makes me sad and ya...helpless in a way ba. There's actually so much tt I wanted to say but I'm glad I didn't...because sometimes it's just better to leave things unsaid...sometimes it just gets frustrating till a pt it becomes painful too.
And I know well tt I was read like a book and...some things you just cannot admit...And yea...this song kinda depicts the picture.
现在听这首歌实在是再贴切不过了
时间呀你听见我了吗
滴答声中我又想起你
回忆呀醒了吗
我只想问一个问题你好吗
爱的记忆会像铁盒一样生锈吗
就算思念旧的可以
也别丢掉它
想念啊你听见我了吗
可能吗第二次让我爱上你
飞走的往事呀
请你转个弯
我爱你的时光你没忘了吧
我再也不会让你哭了呀
你听见吗
(I Love You)
可能吧是我的眼泪吗
这是第几次又想起你
明天呢再说吧
爱情加上一个也许
也不怕
你爱不爱我
是未知数
剪下你给我的回忆
走我走的路
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