...so fast no more tuition liao. Quite sad lea...Hmz...what can I say...nothing much ba...O's in just a few days. So close but so far. Things don't seem to be going the right way for me. Hope this ends quick...preparations...won't say that good la but I guess I should be alright...at least I hope so.
Feeling so complicated...like some roller coaster. Sometimes quite hopeful, sometimes quite hopeless and yet sometimes don't even know what I'm doing...thinking of the things which I should not at this point of time but can't be helped. Whatever...heh...Don't even know whether I stand a chance or not.
Anyway, good luck to all who are taking O's, do your best and you'll achieve the grades you want =).
没有你
我把回忆关进房间 眼前不断浮现
有妳陪我所有画面 朋友说我变的沉默
变的有些难过 邻居都听见了寂寞
也许时间给的太少 没有珍惜妳的好
城市太喧闹 妳没有听到 我不该把手放掉
没有了妳 没有爱情 什么都已经是空气
这些没有妳的日子 没有了自己
没有了妳 没有力气 孤单香水却来袭
我想念妳身上气味 请给我 相互拥抱的机会
妳离开后我才明了 幸福已经溜掉 妳也许都不会知道
爱情如果都是微笑 那多美好 天亮的太早 在偷一秒
想妳的笑 想听妳吵 才发现思念发酵 耶~
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Sunday, October 24, 2004
Hm...like got a lot of things haven't do yet...don't know what will happen sia...so much stuff to cover...just try my best ba. Anyway must relax relax heh...then when go for exams won't be too nervous...looks like my target not so easy to achieve haha...anyway try my best and that's that...don't care what the result is...hmz...quite sad, but well, things in life don't always go your way... Can only look at myself and laugh, laugh at myself, laugh at my own worthlessness...can't be helped la, just hope can get over it ya but I haven't given up hope yet. Go for a last ditch effort.
喜欢
喜欢妳的头发 喜欢妳的脸颊
喜欢妳微笑的时候眼里藏不住的光
喜欢妳的害羞 喜欢妳的疯狂
想要一天二十四个小时守在妳身旁
喜欢开妳玩笑 喜欢叫妳傻瓜
喜欢吓妳一跳的时候看妳慌张的模样
喜欢搭妳肩膀 喜欢妳会怕痒
喜欢趁妳没有防备偷袭妳的手指甲
想要抱妳一下 贴紧我的胸膛
想要告诉妳这样下去不是办法
想要把妳绑架 想要带妳回家
想要非常认真严肃的承诺地老天荒
想要非常认真严肃的承诺地老天荒
思念妳令我惊慌 想到妳令我膨胀
妳的每个笑容都会令我幸福的快爆炸
见妳的时候我总是说些傻呼呼的蠢话
令我随时随地濒临疯狂
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Tuesday, October 19, 2004
Hm...yes, I'm blogging at my friend's house, yeah...came to study and stuff...last night was really terrible for me man...Saw the msg then totally kena shocked lor...heart really sank to the bottom...dono what to do also la ya...from the look of things, it will probably not come my way...anyway if really as what I said, I hope I'll be able to take it ba...I'd better be able to...feels damn sick lor, sure cry one ya. Hoping for a miracle, heh, but I know that it is close to impossible for one to happen to me...
Gonna go back and hit the books again heh...Trying to work hard la but a little difficult...
断了的弦
断了的弦 断了的弦 再怎么练 我的感觉 妳已听不见
妳的转变 像断掉的线 再怎么接 音都不对 妳的改变我能够分辨
我沈默 妳的话也不多 我们之间少了什么 不说
哎唷 微笑后 表情终于有点难过 握着妳的手 问妳确定了再走
我突然释怀的笑 笑着盘旋半山腰
随风在飘摇啊摇 来到妳的面前绕
妳泪水往下的掉 说会记住我的好 我也弯起了嘴角 笑
妳的美 已经给了谁 追了又追 我要不回
我了解 离开树的叶 属于地上的世界 凋谢
断了的弦 再弹一遍 我的世界 妳不在里面
我的指尖 已经弹出茧 还是无法留妳在我身边
断了的弦 再怎么练 我的感觉 妳已听不见
妳的转变 像断掉的弦 再怎么接 音都不对 妳的改变我能够分辨
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Saturday, October 16, 2004
Sec 4 Graduation Day yesterday...so sad. The end of four fine years in VS. More than fine. More than words can express...The impact of this institution in my life. Just so great, so strong. Brought out so much in me. Tears welled up but they never really came...It was a wonderful graduation and so was the gift, those kindda metal bottles with the name of each and every graduating Victorian of year 2004. Really touching. The videos shown and stuff...Was collecting the prize for Meritorous Service Award la but actually supposed to be Reyneth anyway...Promised myself to write tribute after my o's...probably will put it up here ba...anyway will be more personal...
Hm...anyway the day before that was a bit suay...went to parkway for dinner mah...then saw Mr Ang, Mr Tik, Ms Yeo...three teachers in a day...so suay...got sarcasm from Mr Tik somemore...anyway I disturb Mr Tik and Ms Yeo yesterday as revenge heh...lol...funny lea...haha...taking photo that time la heh...took with almost all teachers...anyway Mrs Chin came la...with her dono how many weeks old small baby...good that she came though...
Hm...went to the openhouse that I wanted to see...TJ, VJ and AJ...seriously rather impressed by TJ...the principal talk was rather enriching and also the premises isn't bad. Uniform not so nice la but heck...maybe can make it, dono, see how lo...VJ seems rather fun loving la. Missed the principal talk but heard same as the one they did in school. Alright la...not bad. AJ was like...went late then not much left just walked around the school and stuff. Impression is that it's pretty good...anyway my bro fom there so can get more info heh...dono whether got trials or not...wanna try for soccer heh...Quite happy cos saw a lot of pri school friends...Ian Lau, Ian Vanderput, Caleb Wong, Sherman, Jonathan, Hong Hin, John Wan...can't remember anymore but really nice to see them...
Quite tired...hopefully can continue motivating myself to work...yeah...must whack all the way.
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Sunday, October 10, 2004
...after the not so great prelims, here comes the bigger stuff...Okay la, results not that bad, but not at all decent either...pretty sick and that's after moderation and stuff. And if take total raw my prelims would be shit. A lot of people did damn well...don't know la...just try my best...
Whoa...today super slack...do a few papers only, whole day lazing around...and sleep so long for nothing...wasted so much time...a bit don't know how to go about preparing liao, so just did the homework given. SS and geog a bit a lot ah, Mdm Kwok crazy liao suddenly throw everything and then never say do which one.
Hm...nothing much to say ya...pathetic sia...only can use com so late...I think I work more optimally with the com heh...quite tired of things now...must work harder. Now must push the engine over the limits and do more than what I can and finish off in style hahz...
就是爱
气象说温度骤降 我预言爱情是晴朗
心能感应冷热变化 眼神它反映着温差
直觉在瞬间的刹那 这回真的被电到啦
怎么办 梦里想你你装傻 怎么办
知道我要什么 MY GOD 如果爱像微风
和你一起吹过 连空气味道都变成甜的
当我才发觉 就是爱 世界变了 当你在传达
你爱我 手牵着我 当我正想你 就是爱
天空晴了 当我抬起头 你在眼前了
我不做响应没说法 答案却都写在脸上
挡不住嘴角也上扬 你眼睛突然眨一下
表情就静止停在那 心怎么跳的不象话
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Wednesday, October 06, 2004
Great I'm totally using the com illegally now...heh...can't even touch it lor...so pathetic...just felt that gotta use the com. Prelims not very good la...should've and could've done better...anyway must keep focus on the o's liao...
Hm...next monday last chance to sing Victorian Anthem in VS liao...so sad, very sad. So many things has happened since I first stepped into the old premises at Geylang Bahru until now at Siglap Road, where graduation ceremony is next Friday...leaving VS for good, never coming back as a VS student but only as an old boy.
Good teachers leaving VS one by one lea. End of last year, Ms Woo and Ms Loo left. This year Mr Tik and Mr Leo left. Really a pity that these great teachers couldn't stay and teach the coming generations of Victorians.
Heart got a huge dent in it...feeling quite bad now, dono what to do also...sigh...looking the way things are...don't even know whether can get better or not, of course hoping for a positive outcome...chances are that there may not be one. Feeling quite helpless
Don't feel too good about anything right now...must mug...what else...dono.
Not sure whether got any more chances to blog...
某年某月某一天
干干净净的天 风景在后退 空荡荡的车厢里
妳的脸轻靠着我的肩安心的睡了
如果什么都会变 爱能不能例外
想承担这样甜蜜的重量 守着妳到终点
虽然我还不知道 到达幸福最快速的路线
虽然我不能解释 但时间终于会证明一切 Babe
爱到某年某月某一天 直到我微笑的闭上眼
闪过心里最后的画面 还是蓝天里的妳 Ya....
爱到某年某月某一天 渴望一直守护一个人的感觉
让我邀请妳 一起去看一看永远 Ya....
浮浮沉沉的心 有多少试炼 只希望我的怀里
是一个没有风没有雨小小的世界
如果什么都会变 爱一定能例外
在妳和我和天空的面前 许下一个 预言
短短的旅程 长长的一辈子 从此妳的每一天
都让爱 都让我 陪着妳一起走 无论最后是什么时候
一直到我们都走不动 爱上了一个人 不再是一个人
紧紧牵着妳的手 Ya....Na Ooh
爱到某年某月某一天 渴望一直守护着一个人
Oh No... 一起去看看永远
用我所有的坚决 Oh... Oh Ya...
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Sunday, October 03, 2004
Now got chance, so blog, yeah can't sleep, pretty late liao...don't know...getting a little worried for my prelim results ya cos heard so many stories from my friends...hm...anyway quite slack la...so can't expect too much ba...looking forward and also a little fearful at the same time but more of the former.
Not feeling tired at all...no idea either...eh...maybe cos feeling a little elated on the other hand also a bit down...very complicated feeling. Got quite a lot of homework now that I looked at it but finished most of it liao...hm...really nothing much to say heh...anyway just now on the phone then ya really fun and warm cos chatted a lot of stuff...worries just got swept away and hopefully not just for me...hope next time can do that more often...I've really nothing to say liao haha...hope for the best ba...heh.
感觉还蛮不错的。通电话的感觉真是难以言喻的。开心，愉快地感觉不断地围绕着我。在那短短的一个钟头里，我真的真得很幸福。听到她的声音真的让我精神抖擞，心旷神怡。不管讲什么，那段时间真的让我尝尽人生的乐趣。听起来也许有点白痴，但那可是千真万确的。兴奋的心情向无一般围绕着我。真希望这种感觉不会散去，并持续的留在我身边。当然，还是希望她会比我开心，幸福万倍并且无烦恼的生活下去。若真有任何困难的话，我必定挺身而出，像守护天使一般的呵护着她。
你的微笑
喜欢用我的音调 唱出你的味道
这一秒 有种感觉甜蜜的发酵
一百种言语知道 爱有一个声道 才明了
是你眼神传来的暗号 太多的幸福报到 拼凑爱的美妙
笑一笑投入你怀里然后撒娇 不需要别人来教
把爱紧紧抓牢 这一秒 决定拥抱你给的美好
爱情是你独特的味道 在我的心中围绕 别人都不了
只有你知道 因为你 世界不再单调 我的微笑
你明白就很好 你就像月亮绕着轨道 拥抱着地球闪耀
在我的星球 写下惊叹号 有了你世界神魂颠倒
你的微笑 编织了每一个奇妙
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Saturday, October 02, 2004
Hm...just woke up so nothing to write, write about yesterday ya heh...During assembly heard that Mr Leo gonna leave for Japan to further his studies...damn sad sia, if we knew sure get card for him one lo...sigh...great teachers are always leaving...although he only teach me PE before and for less than half a year, I still respect him a lot, more than most of the other teachers...
PE beginning...eh train a bit pull up...then Adriel and Vishnu a bit what lea...dowan to say la...anyway 12 now heh...a small improvement but I think Ben more than 15 liao, must work harder lol...
Anyway played soccer yeah...so long never kick the ball liao...played at parade square with leather ball ya...Mr Leo say cos our last PE lesson so let us use leather ball. Damn fun sia...5-1 was the score heh...Alex 2, Fabian 2, Teck Peng one own goal lol...I got 2 or 3 assists nia..disappointing heh...but really fun. Good football as Wei Rui said...a bit like Arsenal like that, one touch, very nice. Come to think of it, our class got quite a few good soccer players...form team lioa still got subs...Anyway at the end gave Mr Leo farewell hug...ok I was the only who did that la, the rest all shake hand nia...we'll really miss him lo...but he'll be back in two years' time.
Nothing much else to write about. Monday get prelim results...don't know about it la, bad feeling...dono any results yet...but my teacher told me got A2 for HCL la...if he remembered correctly that is...I think he was wrong though...never got A2 for major exams before lo...Now I realise the importance of HCL...I thought little of the two bonus points before...but now I know that it's really important...2 points is a big big diff...
Exams start for all sec 1 to 3 Victorian on Monday. Good luck and persevere on, you can do it.
心里真的好难受。尤其是被人置之不理的时候…我的心正在隐隐作痛。我的心已被刺中又狠狠地被人撕裂了。叹气已成为我呼吸的一部分，泪水已不再对我罕见，幸福已是我所望尘莫及的。任谁也不喜欢这种无法形容的感觉。尤其是遭受到心上人对我的冷漠。她甚至连正眼看我一次都没有。一次都没有。我的心不禁落了泪，血泪。我并不知道自己到底做错了什么，也不知道什么事情发生。我就这样的被忽略了。我也不知自己该如何是好。她似乎还打算继续的冷漠我。我想自己真的不幸，真的连缘这个字也无法写出。迷惘正是我现在的感受，用这字词来形容束手无策的我倒是再贴切不过了。
我的
我的呼吸 我的爱情 我的希望
我的梦 我的假装 我的懦弱 我的沉默
都是为你 (我的全部 都是为你)
我的天真 我的幻想 我的孤单 我的心
我的悲伤 我的坚强 我的眼泪 都是为你
所有所有的一切 为你 所有所有一切 给你
所有所有的一切 为你 所有所有 都交给你
我的美丽 我的笑容 我的迷惘 我的歌 我的现在
我的未来 我的一切 都是为你
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Friday, October 01, 2004
Don't know...aiyoh, things just kindda went wrong ba...don't know what I had done wrong or anything...don't know what happened...not at all. Clueless...completely ignored that is...looked back more than ten times only to turn my head back in dismay everytime...also don't know what to do...this kindda feeling is really bad...sigh...life quite meaningless...
...haven't bought anything yet >_<, hopefully tomorrow can find ba, also don't know what to buy lea...but then tomorrow got physics practical, after that got tuition so a bit rush...don't know, see first...
Graduation day on the 15th...so fast to the end of life in Victoria School, last few chances to sing Victorian Anthem as a Victorian...so many things to reminicse...hope next time got chance to come back, but also don't know whether can or not...Yeah...tomorrow still got one last PE lesson...this time really last one liao, must cherish and score more goals heh...better not rain tomorrow morning...School field still cannot use? Now look so lush and green, a few weeks back was just a pool of mud...anyway really last time liao...saddening that we'll leave VS so soon, very soon...
Good things never seem to last...
不说
在蓝色的伞下 你拥抱了我的肩膀 心跳停在那一瞬间
有什么在融化 喜欢和你说话
漫无目的的一起分享 我们没有发现心里
爱情正在发芽 你的眼光 像透明的橱窗 你的心慌
和我一样 如果跨过了线会到什么地方
我们还要当多久的朋友 你不说我也不能说
期待就像膨胀的气球 说破了 怕什么都落空
我们难道要一直当朋友 你不说 我也不敢说
大雨却像甜蜜的前奏 预测了 一场浪漫的开头
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