Hai~~...today the polyclinic attachment for sec 1s - 3s. Don't think VIs went lahz and sec 4s also never go. Hopefully Aaron and Daniel Yew found their groups liao, they better pass ULP man, don't throw our face. So far think all those who attended from VS passed. Strating from Jasper sir and Nigel sir. Because last time split from HQ so I think before that batch no one attended any course lor...come to think of it, now got some problems in the unit also kindda because separated from the HQ for don't know how many years lor. Now slowly picking up lahz but not fast enough, next batch of committee must work harder ya?
Still thinking about the unit lorz. Can't really concentrate on studies coz still got so many problems with the next committee etc etc. Anyway prelim oral on Friday, don't know how to prepare sia. Can die. Today damn slack lor, only did November 2002 paper 2 for E Maths, rest of the day either sleeping or slacking. Tomorrow must work harder liao. Hopefully can finish holiday homework by end of this week then can start mugging liao.
No idea why suddenly my free hit counter gone...Feeling quite sad and down lehz...cannot tell why. Not that it has affected me much...okay lah it has. Low productivity lor...just hoping for the best.
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Sunday, May 30, 2004
Heyz...Today nothing much happened but just became pissed again lor. Stupid Aaron and Daniel Yew, really pissed with them lor. Stupid reason for not attending the ULP yesterday. Argh, really don't know what to do with them. They gonna be the next chair and vice chair lor, give reason like wrong attire , don't what to do or what to bring that's why never attend. I mean it's lame reasons lah. Meet there liao then last minute dowan to go...Buay tahan liao. This thing let them settle themselves liao lor, they fail the course they don't get their SWO only and I'm sure they'll get scolded for this lor.
Stupid ULP degenerating over the years man. Last year only got camp and hike, this year even worse lor, left wiht camp only. Screw it up and no more SWO. Quite lame? Seriously one camp alone not enough to see the potential of the various chairs and vice chairs. And I realised like only consider on their planning ability and not much on their leadership, if there is any in the first place. Feel that gotta find some way to show their leadership, planning and executing alone can be done by anyone lor. Red Cross also a bit like getting down lor, think every unit should be supplied a VI so that HQ knows more about the units and can improve mah. Like that some units no VI then also don't know what to do etc. Anyway these stuff I also cannot do anything about it lah. Thinking about joining HQ as Vi for VS lehz but also don't know lah. Difficult decision, maybe next time then decide? Don't really like the way HQ does things at times lah but sometimes they're quite good, that I gotta admit. With so many changes happening don't know whether the various units can take it not.
Anywayz...good luck for all that are taking the Chinese O's tomorrow, especially the VS people, hopefully can get 100% distinction, heh...
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Saturday, May 29, 2004
Yesterday that post very dreary so today try to write something more positive. Anyway today went for parade, normal just that sec 3s taking charge and I'm sorta just an observer. Generally alright for a first try, given the last minute planning etc but still got loads more to improve. Not fierce enough, never shout enough for some and very quiet also. Must show more of themselves. Also the supposed vice chair and chair not there then no real "leader" around to run things. Got is got lah but then no really decisive enough. Think I told them all my comments liao. Must lead by example, the golden rule. Whack them hard and let them experience and remember an event which is difficult so that they will not dare to show attitude or lack of discipline again. And remember to solve problems within the sec 3s first, before you are able to go on and plan other stuff. Must come up with system, think got teach you all before. Acid-alkali and stuff lah don't forget hor. My LDP not for fun one, and I think it's useful that's why I teach.
Feel that we've got good VIs. Tuan Chun sir was from VSRCCU also, so he knows us well and can relate to us much. Not much communication barrier between him and us. As for David sir, he does a lot of work and has a lot of comments on the unit and leaders, even though normally just stand at the side and look. Feel that easier for next committee to handle the unit with VIs. Just hope things work out between teachers in charge and committee and of course the VIs as well. Just wanna leave the unit knowing that it is in safe hands of the next committee and the VIs, so can concentrate on mugging, heh.
After parade played some basketball, gaining back my form. but nowadays no time to play lah so just play for fun. Played with the sec 3s lah and they're not exactly good. Don't know what briefing Aaron and Daniel Yew go sia. Morning ah? Seriously all the briefings I went in HQ normally evening one lehz. Anyway their thing let them settle themselves lah.
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Friday, May 28, 2004
Nothing wrong with today until Mrs Raj talked to me. Made me so damn bloody pissed lor. Hardly felt so angry in my whole damned life. Everytime angry because talk to her sia. Really killing me. Told her the camp probably cannot make it for some of the sec 4s then she bloody hell say what shit, make me damn angry. Say what CCA and academics we all cannot make it then what use parents as shield. Felt like punching her lor. Seriously our results generally quite poor then parents definitely also won't allow us to go for 3 days 3 nights camp. We do so badly for mid year liao sure some of our parents won't allow right? And they want us to study for our prelims lor. they are concerned about us. Santosh sir's batch passed out in May and never touch the unit at all lor. I mean we are still willing to help even after we pass out but Mrs Raj seems ignorant of it. And she bothered me even though Monday is O'levels Chinese. Does not concern me but she doesn't know I take higher mother tongue. She quite inconsiderate ah, if find Reyneth or something right surely kena distracted lor. Also never say we dowan to attend the camp, just said MAYBE cannot make it for the whole camp, seriously too demanding for us to be present there all the while. Some of us got what GSSP and then got remedials, make-ups. She think we very free. I also wanna go right??? We never plan for camp because she said dowan to have because of Sars and last minute when she wanted she told us very late then we embarked on the camp proposal and doing liao she suddenly say cannot. Sickeningly just say what pass the deadline lor, when obviously in our minutes still had a lot of time before deadline is up, damn irritating. Think she got something cannot make it then use this as excuse.
She make it sound like we are useless lor. We spent so much time and effort in the unit and she does not even recognise it. Damn unfair. Feel that she treats the previous committee and the sec 3s very well and biased against us. Say what never do anything for unit. Agree competition wise we not so good, we brought the unit's standard down and let the unit down as leaders. No doubts about that. But we have put in our utmost efforts in the unit and she doesn't know what we do. Understand that Santosh sir's batch did very well and we never do as well but she just scrutinise us like free. She only cares about competition lor. And not all the fault lies in us. Agree that we as leaders may not be good but I'd have to say why Santosh sir's batch was so successful was because of us also lor. Infoquiz Zheng Cai and Danny studied like mad, performed better than Desmond sir that's why got National 4th. For us, our sec 3s never perform and all the blame is put on us. Can say that our leadership is not as good, but still the problem also lies with the cadets. Feel that we as cadets even surpass Santosh sir's batch as cadets. Sure we haven't got such a good attitude as them but we do more and work better. The Talentime Drama can say we won it on our own lor, never needed their committee to step in and help except for some trainings. But when we let the sec 3s do last year, they procastinated everything till the last minute and we had to force them to refine their scripts and all that. After that trainings also we had to organise all those shit for them. Then of course will affect the footdrill com also mah...wasted January and December on Talentime thanks to the sec 3s. Again all the blame on us. Explained to Mrs Raj still scold us, thinks she correct all the time. Everytime we wrong she scold scold scold, when she at fault she sometimes admit mistake but sometimes no matter how also don't admit. PMS? Don't know and don't care lah. Anyway really damn pissed. About EUA, sometimes the letters from HQ come in, by the time she take it and pass to us deadline already over or close to deadline already, then missed so many events and things, of course EUA got problem lah. Then Santosh sir's batch also never accrediate us for the badges then everything on us to do. Lucky Huda Mdm, Chee Keong sir and Yong Cheng sir willing to come down twice just to help us lor, or else even worse. Just feel that everything is on us, kena blamed for everything that happens and she never looks deep into what happens lor. Just wanna say our efforts are hardly recognised and furious about Mrs Raj. Really unreasonable and demanding. We may not have done as well as Santosh sir's batch but we have put in our best efforts lor, we have tried hard and worked hard as well. But things just do not always go our way and there are many factors as to why we failed as committee and our lack of achievements.
Don't feel like writing anymore about today lah...too angry to relate today's events lo...generally okay lah.
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Thursday, May 27, 2004
Morning got some feedback from principal on the results. Damn bad sia. My class so lousy. Even first in class I think can hardly make it into top 20 lor. Sickz. My results
so sucky still 9th in class leh, cannot make it at all.
Mother Tongue lessons really normal, nothing much, just learnt a new chapter. Voting for head prefects'...Mr Maran said what VS was the first school to incoporate voting for head prefect?? Maybe...The IT lab assigned to my class. Both the people in charge of taking the votes are from Red Cross...makes me so proud lor. Marcus is trainee prefect, just hope he can make it and become full fledged prefect. First prefect since don't know when lah, although Santosh sir was offered to become one but he rejected. Then Jonathan I don't know why he there. I know he monitor of 1H but then what has he got to do with prefects!? Don't think he got nominated lah but he got potential among sec 1s, and that's comforting. Realised degeneration among the younger people, hope this doesn't go on lor, or else next time Singapore sure gone liaoz...
Anyway got report book liao, think no needa use com anymore lor, results so sucky. Sick lah stupid MSN don't know what to do with it.
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Wednesday, May 26, 2004
The wonderful MSN Messenger still cannot work, that's great. Don't know what wrong. Stupid troubleshooter says what no internet connectivity. No idea what's going on man. But guess it doesn't really matter since more or less can only use com for 15 minutes or so a day.
Woke up at 9 plus still feeling so tired. Can't help it. Went school all the way just for stupid mother tongue lessons. I think it's really lame to start the lessons in the afternoon. Should have it in the morning lor. Just because of don't know what stupid arts performance thingy then drag our lessons to afternoon.
Sianz. Tomorrow got tuition then the stupid school supposedly ends at 12.45pm. Like what I do after that? The tuition starts at 5.30pm lor...Go home also waste time. Maybe stay in school and do some studying? Don't know, must see first. Anwyay, hopefully can do some stuff and not waste time lor.
The stupid MSN...must try to get it up and running, don't know what's wrong!?~~...
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Tuesday, May 25, 2004
Today go school a bit waste of time eh...go there just to verify our marks lor...Stay in classroom play dai dee and chess lor, kaoz...big waste of time. My higher chinese marks was keyed in wrongly...kao missing 10 marks, lucky got see ah or else die liaoz...Eh...think my L1R5 is 22 after the overall and crap added in. Really sucky >_<...must make sure work a lot harder and do well in prelims.
Morning got announcement say Ms Kan retiring today...sad sia, she worked for 37 years as a teacher liao. She only taught me CME in sec 1 lah...but she was really a nice teacher lor...hope she will live her retirement days in comfort.
When going through A Maths paper, we discussing buy what for Mr Jackson Tik...he leaving liao lor...Must be one of the best Chem teachers around. Damn sad, heard he leaving within two weeks in July, then left with Ms Yeo to teach...can die siaz. Hm...maybe if Reyneth reads this 4B also will get present for him!? Anyway thought of some ideas lah but not very practical lehzzz...
Higher chinese lessons after school. Don't understand lehz, quite waste time doing this. Was so tired that I was sleeping when the teacher going through the summary...hehz. Learnt some new chapter again...so slow, hopefully holidays have some make up lah or else really cannot catch up.
Reminds me got what two boxes of files in the office must distribute to the class ah...Must remind Marcus on Thursday. Think Bryan left the Bio papers in class lor, said what must give out before go for mother tongue classes, in the end everyone leave without taking.
After lessons went to look for Mr Tik's present with few others...found some rather interesting stuff but then still undecided, have to talk to Marcus they all lor, discuss a bit before really buying. Best is if one whole lot go together and decide on the present on the spot. Just hope that can find a really nice one that he can remember us forever, even though he only taught us for like 6 months only...
Kaoz...finally barred from my com, maybe can even hardly blog in the future, anyway just hope can just a while everyday lahz and my MSN got prob leh, anyone knows why?
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Monday, May 24, 2004
Today wake up left leg there still pain but slightly better than yesterday.
One of the worst days ever had man...Results were downright lousy...nothing to say lor. Total L1R5 is 29 lehz...counting raw lo...if overall not too sure lah but will be much better I guess...Think maybe my results earn me a place in GSSP lahz...sianz. Failed two sub lor...A Maths is pretty obvious failure lah, but Physics was really a big disappointment to me. A borderline fail but still...dropped so much from my CA1...T_T...Biology and E Maths also extremely disappointing lah...thought could get A's for these subjects but turned out to be a flop.
Overall results really in the pit...within my class I think still above average but my class one of the worst in the level lor...cannot make it at this rate sia. Must really start mugging for my prelims liao. Anyway not much time left lah, maybe can lax a bit here and there lah but really must start my engine liao or else sure die...Hopefully prelims will be really good for me...
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Sunday, May 23, 2004
Today nothing much really happened...Woke up at 9am like that then realised leg still damn pain, don't know how to go school tomorrow sia...Next worry is that tomorrow go school check scripts...can die, I'm pretty sure I won't do well for this mid year lor. Whole day slacking...either reading comics or playing. Never do much of anything else lo...Taled on the phone for some time...really nice...
Biggest prob is still my results...heh...think will die lah...if can get below 20 it'd be great but think it's not possible.
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Yesterday's combined activity was pretty good. Not so much problems occured, some last minute changes and improvisations but overall a job well done. Missed out on several minor details, but still rather successful.
Discipline of cadets pretty down. Not so good, especially the VS cadets. Rather poor I'd say. Then sit down posture also not always there. Drills wise very rusty liao...need more practice.
Morning came damn late lah...my fault because got some problems then Ru Bin also a bit blur, so became damn late. The stupid 16 also took 10 years to come in the end took 76 instead. Came so late distribute andcheck stuff already take attendence liao. Attendence taking very fast leh. Normally will comment on their attire and posture. Then suddenly today most of them shout so loud...normally shout so soft only, must be wanna impress the girls.
Ice breakers got a bit of prob lah but anyway went smoothly. Introduction that time quite cold ah...some people really very soft and sian sian like that. Angel and Devil was quite...run here run there...then they also never follow the rules. Anyway I always gave the wrong clues. Then a lot of instructors stay at the fitness corner there rest. Yee Feng whole day kena chased because her name is one of the clues. Quite pro. Elias sit around there no one wanna catch...I starting run like mad, then go rest liao...Run that time people wanna catch, when rest not moving no one wanna catch. Quite...
Management crisis seemed alright lah. Do the trust fall...Generally not too shabby. But none of the groups asked for my initials sia. Until I gave Bravo a clue lo, coz they got the highest cash. The stupid Foxtrot anyhow leave the scoresheet with us, then never take until dono when. Quite dumb. The David quite attitude problem, just snatch the score sheet from Shu Wen.
Received souvenirs and gave them the VS PE shirt. Was nice lor...but they didn't like it I guess. But their present really nice and cute. Some stuffed bear with the shirt bearing 'TK & VS'. Was really nice.
Had a really great time working with the TK people, could see some people who were really good. But I shall keep my comments to myself =X, or else...
After the combined activity played basketball with the TK NCOs. The game was alright lah. Quite fierce sia, the girls shoot and score like free, quite pro. But I starting already crash into Elias. Think I got greenstick. My thigh still hurting now and my muscle like not pain like that. Then later also kena cramp sia. Left calf muscle. Last time played basketball was before the mid year. Mugged for too long liao.
My thigh injury is killing me lor, can't even walk properly. Tomorrow still gotta go school, how sia...!? Might as well take MC then tomorrow no need get results heh...Maybe gotta see doctor liao, more serious then I thought.
Went home liao still limping seh. Not bad. Eat liao bathed, then lie on my bed, waiting to use com and phone lor...But then before I realised it, it was 9.00am in the morning liaoz.
Cherish the times we had together...
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Friday, May 21, 2004
Physics I think Mrs Foo teach finish the CRO liao, still a bit blur about it though. Chemistry finished the macromoelecules chapter but Ms Yeo like say got something else haven't finished?
Today super tired. During mother tongue lessons was dozing off. But also not much lah, just talk about the stupid thing. Then did some zao ju after that. My mid year for higher chinese only 61.5 lor...can cry sia. So lousy...
Interview was alright...got hope...but Mrs Raj damn demanding sia...tell her about the stupid forms no stamp and signature then scold like mad...none of us remembered her saying see her in morning. Anyway say until like totally our fault and that the ULP people we decide one. Of course must tell her our point of view then let her decide mah...how can just select like that...
Only went for Physics tuition. Skipped Chem lor...to "finish up" the proposal. I'm sure still got many flaws in it but last night no time to check. Pathetic...still had to buy food back home to save time...Think got no time to finish refining the proposal leh...anyway...tomorrow hopefully will be successful but cannot be fun because doreen mdm coming siaz...a bit wet blanket.
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Thursday, May 20, 2004
The mother tongue lessons was alright lah. Feel that they are quite useful. He knows what he's doing...slowly teaching the skills. Hopefully can finish the syllabus ASAP...so can practise and study.
Chemistry was boring. Ms Yeo her voice like quite soft, then teaching can make us sleep one. Learnt about the stupid macromolecules and the synthetic polymers, finished the addition of polymers and touched a bit on condensation of polymers. Natural polymers haven't touch yet.
Physics learnt some stuff on cathode ray oscilloscope. The electron gun and stuff lah. A bit blur. My concenttration level was dipping then.
Today damn tired sia. Slept so little...then still got the meeting.
Stupid voting lor, no use IMHO. Still must prepare for interview tomorrow...sianz. Then last minute TK people say no extra lessons, then I actually could've gone for my tuition one lor, but then because they say then I never bring my tuition file. Missed like free liao.
The meeting generally okay lah, not as unproductive as on Tuesday. The stupid Huda and Elias getting on my nerves. Got anything can just talk to me sia...no need so lame. Quite pissing me off ah.
Did some stuff and refined the proposal by a little bit. That Huda say what type finish by tonight, I don't think she'll deliver it to us on time lor. Quite obvious, she like quite busy one still wanna type...don't know sia.
Anyway damn tired lah...still got stuff to prepare and must look through the changed proposal. Hopefully the stuff like the cash and things can be done properly by everyone and the combined activity go smoothly...
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Wednesday, May 19, 2004
Today whole day at home never do any much lor...only slack around, use com, read book. Totally pure slacking. Feel like going out to play some sports leh. Long time never play liao.
Nothing to say sia...only that I woke up at 12 noon...then eat, sleep, slack. Kaoz...tomorrow going to TK, don't even know anything there sia. Must make sure the discussion tomorrow goes smoothly...must have the proposal with us!? Forgot still got what left to discuss...remembered got the clues for devil and the separation of manpower, including the NCO's movement chart. The minutes of the meeting yesterday I totally never get sia...wth man.
Can't help thinking...
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Tuesday, May 18, 2004
Today the meeting very crappy lorz...the stuff we discuss is like might as well not discuss...No one brought the proposal, so cannot do anything!! Meeting was damn unproductive lor...whole day talking cock. Started from the egg plant then brinjal...damn lame lor. Whole day only did a bit of stuff, settle some minor problems. The stupid NCO timetable/flowchart or whatever you call it not done at all...neither are the questions finished, although almost done liao. Don't even think at this rate can hold it lor. Then they got what Speech Day rehersals but they claim can skip it...Suddenly so much stuff happen sia. Anyway was damn tired during the meeting lahzzz...
Before the meeting saw Kennick, Vishnu, Adriel Jacob and Joshua at BK. They said they went bowling before that and gonna play pool...kaoz never ask me go along sia...anyway I also cannot go for their pool.
Sianz...don't feel in good mood today, nowadays always like that. Also don't know what to do. Anywayz feel damn tired lah...
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Monday, May 17, 2004
Kao...yesterday com got problem sia. Morning use that time still ok one...afternoon come back from grandma house then short circuit sia. Lucky only power supply spoil sia...motherboard spoil then can die.
Sigh...last time go my grandma house was close to two months ago...she still so concerned about me lor...feel so bad. Don't know what to do.
Anyway never go aids awareness...maybe should have gone lah but reach home a bit late liao so never go.
Today went out with Kian Tiong and Edwin...yeah not me...another guy lah. Seriously must thanks you guys...Really happy to have such great friends to be with me finding the stuff which I wanted to buy. Went to get some books from Kinokuniya. Realised nowadays like to read Sherlock Holmes books by Sir Arthur Conan Doyle. Really interesting...Anyway also got some other stuff lah.
Reach home liao...nothing to do at all lor. Really can't study or anything. Slacking the whole day >_<...so much stuff to worry about. Just hope the meeting tomorrow will be productive.
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Saturday, May 15, 2004
Was damn tired today...wake up that time my whole body spliting...Got parade somemore...but only got pt. Damn lame...hold the damned parade just to sell the tickets. Pt not too tough lor...but the cadets do a bit wanna faint liao. Too weak liao. Must ask the next committee to step up on fitness...really getting weaker and weaker sia. Anyway Mrs Raj siao one, what vote for next committee. The sec 1s know nuts about the unit they vote got what use sia. Then the sec 2s also may vote some crap. Must decide on meritocracy lah, not popularity. Sigh...
The ticket selling not too productive. Some people do 1 hour sell only 2 tickets. Quite little ah. But got people sell 1 booklet also. At least help them a bit lah. The cadets really not very outspoken lor. Must raise their confidence. Just feel troubled.
Hm...don't think can do anything about it...unless...maybe if got miracle.
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Friday, May 14, 2004
End of exams liao...>_<...the paper today not so good although the compre and summary i quite confident. Stupid Mrs Raj, today suddenly just tell Christopher tomorrow got parade. Yeah and parade have some pt and first aid then bloody hell go street collection for the donation draw tickets. Damn bloody pissed off sia. Suddenly just say go street collection. And then never tell us personally lor. Expect to just relay these kindda important messages through the cadets to us?? Damn idiotic sia...and this is not the first time lor. Feel so pissed when sometimes the cadets know what's going on but we nothing crap about it. Had enough of it liao. Got chance must go show my displeasure. Really pissing me off...last minute...then suddenly without any parade plan hold some parade...Not bad for a teacher-in-charge. Best part is now still exam week, some people exam haven't even finish yet lor. So inconsiderate of her and then never discuss with us somemore. Have committee got what use!?!?
Anyway other than that today feeling not bad. The paper maybe got some hope lah. Yesterday afternoon mugged my Higher Chinese until not bad. Come to night time got distraction liao...never really get to study lah but it was really great. Thanks a lot =)!! Han Ze said I was dumb...lotsa crap what waste time...nah I found it worthwhile...
After the paper went bowling...budden suddenly the 4D people back off say what wanna watch Troy, damn irritating leh. The stupid Prabhu also suddenly dowan to come...bring his bowling shoes for nothing. In the end only 3 people go...but still fun lah.
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Thursday, May 13, 2004
Chem was a total killer...for me that is. Quite a number of people said what...okay...then relatively easy...I was stunned sia. Like totally gone for me lah. I wasn't in good condition also...adding to the difficulty of the paper. Felt really tired and off. Couldn't really muster any concentration...not even the least bit. Really bad man...
Actually yesterday afternoon was great. Studied a lot of my Chem but things got really bad at night. My mind just switched off...got break down or something then cannot even read the notes lehz...Until now still somewhat blur...
Not in good mood either. Thinking of too much stuff lorx...Anyway tomorrow Higher Chinese paper 2. Really must do well...probability close to zero though...My English was badly done, so have to bank on this now. Maybe more sleep will give me more focus...but I haven't even studied yet...got half of sec 3 stuff being tested also...The proverbs also haven't touched...T_T...worse thing is cannot even focus on studying lahzzz...thinking too much...not on my academics...
Mwahaz...tomorrow gonna go bowling with the 2A/02 gang. Damn shiok!! Last time we officially met up was the chalet at the end of sec 2. Just gotta love this class man...much better than my current class >_<...anyway just feeling great about it!!
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Wednesday, May 12, 2004
Eh...the E Maths actually quite easy one lehz...but poor time management by me lah...Don't know my chances of getting A now...sick. Think got the most hope to get A lor. A Maths and Geog is sure die one...so must rely on other subjects liao...
Tomorrow chem sia...damn fierce. That Mr Tik say it'll be difficult lor...don't know what to say...Got more sec 3 stuff tested...my sec 3 end of year got a mere pass only...Argh. Anyway try my best to mug finish all my notes lah.
Hopefully when exams over I'll feel better!?
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Tuesday, May 11, 2004
The geog paper was tough...no time to finish the 'essays'. The questions were rather difficult also...Never study enough. I thought that the bio would be bad because I didn't even touch it at all...yeah...didn't even read through my notes. But it turned out to be pretty alright...the paper 2 had some difficult questions which I anyhow answer...if I studied for it, I'd be confident to score high marks for it but too bad I didn't.
Tomorrow E Maths only...if I don't cock up during the paper like last year, I'm think I can make it...The sec 3 and 4 stuff generally not too difficult lah. Just that gotta practise a lot on sec 3 stuff as I practically forgot all of them. And if the paper not too difficult I might just be able to get an A1.
Feeling really at the pit...feel like an idiot...feel vexed, lost, empty, tired, aimless...Can't think of worse words to describe my feelings and mood. Really not very good...Think I got no guts...
Not feeling too well either...
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Monday, May 10, 2004
Today's papers quite alright lah...but got some parts really difficult...anywayz, worrying about tomorrow's papers lah. Geogra[hy and Biology. No time to finish studying sia...don't know what to do at all...They changed the template of the whole webby...looks alright lah...doesn't really matter to me anyway.
Got new tagboard...old one went bonkers lah...
Think I gotta mug half half lah...or else really die.
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Sunday, May 09, 2004
Tag board got some problem. Temporary error for quite some time...>_<. Anyway tomorrow got Physics and English paper 2...alright lah...Physics need more practise. Biggest worry is Tuesday. Biology and Geography Elective...Double killer. More worried about geog though. So much to study and don't know how to answer the dumb questions. Biology I think if study properly can make it. Can foresee my death liao lah...the stupid exams practically most of the subjects haven't study finish. Hope can get better results than my CA...I think impossible sia. Just dowan get into GSSP. Waste of time only...Looking forward to end of exams...Got some stuff for combined activity also not done yet. Don't know whether TK people can work notz...never see the whole committee before other than those four or five...
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Saturday, May 08, 2004
...Slept at 10 plus last night...earliest I slept for quite some time...because very tired lo...woke up twice in the morning...once at 1 plus like that...another time at about 4 plus 5 plus like that...don't know why lah. Woke up at about 8.45am...damn early sia...earliest since a long long time...excluding school days lah. Very slack today...got slight headache...revised very little only...can die sia. Mid year is so stressing. So much stuff to study and don't feel like it lor...the first two papers already killed me off liao...no more morale. But still must try to hit the books. Hopefully can finish revision for geog elective and bio by today lah but it's close to impossible. The content got a lot...Then still got physics also...don't know how to study...Look at the amount of stuff needed to study already can faint liao...
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Friday, May 07, 2004
Sick, lethargic and screwed up...the words that can describe me now. All started with the papers yesterday. Mother Tongue paper 1 was alright...The Social Studies paper was a real killer. I originally never really studied much...or rather the stuff couldn't stick to my thick head. And the questions were really sick...difficult, can foresee the first failure already. Then after that studied in library with the 4D people, they are really good with their A Maths man...by then I was quite groggy liao. Went for A Maths tuition and when reached home everything turned worse. To add to my sore throat, I had a bad cough and I was really tired.
The English paper 1 today was alright lah but my compo sorta sucked. Realised didn't really do much for it. Was feeling a little groggy during the paper liao. Then came A Maths when my brain switched off entirely. Couldn't think of anything lor...could neither focus nor concentrate on the paper. Worst thing was that the paper was EXTREMELY difficult!! Asked the nerds they also say damn difficult. Then I like not dead. This paper is a definite failure. Went for Physics and Chemistry tuition...condition got only worse. Couldn't really pay attention during the class and felt really sick. Got an additional flu and mucus within me...what a great time to have during mid years. Now can hardly think or study lor...don't know what to do sia. Scared pass my sickness to my brother and parents also...
Wah...so much stuff to do but so little time...sick somemore...might as well jump down sia...argh...feel so bad...eyes very pain also...think got slight fever...argh...how to cure fast ah!? Realised got problems with exams sia...last year end of year also head block in every paper...then screwed it all up, now this...bad luck with exams sia. Thinking...
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Wednesday, May 05, 2004
Haish~~...tomorrow mid year start liao, got MT paper 1 and Social Studies...first day already quite fierce ah...Social Studies so much stuff to revise lor...still have to revise the skills and how to use...don't know whether can finish revising or not...Then also must remember the structure for writing the letters...wah...also don't know compo got what type come out...just hope don't screw it up lor...Hard disk reformatted again...but heck...maybe until end of next week won't use com so often lah...
Feel damn stressed sia. Very lethargic and tired also...tomorrow mid year liao. Think I successfully pressed my panic button...or so Mdm Kwok claims...feel rather nervous about tomorrow. Very important sia mid year and I slack until hardly revised. Anywayz, dowan to go GSSP lah...whole day stuck in school until like 5.30pm...Hope can do well for all my papers...although it's really difficult...continue revising liao...
Must think and strategise what to do!!~~
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Tuesday, May 04, 2004
...Mr Sng during PE today said the Chong Hwa Secondary from Malaysia coming...guess this time we're the hosts lah...they hosted us for 3 years for the sec 3 camps...brings back really fond memories of Kluang...anyway he asked us to form some basketball team to play against them lah. Surely lose one...difficult to win lor, they got their own basketball team and this year the sec 3s lost to them 60+ - 0...or so he claims lah...i doubt so...impossible not to even score a single point? Anyway...think he said it was on the 29th May lah...like that more than half the sec 4s all got O'level Mother Tongue lor...how to form sia...see what Jeffrey and Velu do about it lah.
E Maths wasn't exactly good lah...I mean it was alright only. Got back vectors test...11/15 only, so bad...Then got revision test on loci and geometrical transformation...heh got 19/20...think one of the highest in class...made a very stupid mistake. The stupid scale factor...but no time to go through the 2002 paper leh...and Mr Zuraimi also never give us any answers...
Biology go through the MCQ paper lah...got quite some don't know how to do...because I haven't even started revising yet...then give some paper again...tomorrow going through I guess. A Maths got some paper to do...a bit late ah...this Friday exam liao. Anyway the stuff generally okay lah...know more or less how to do and haven't really revised at all. Yesterday got back the differenciation retest then got 13/16 only...damn sucky lor...actually can get full marks one but really careless...
Got Chemistry make up after school. The stupid test got only 18/30!!! Can't believe it man...lotsa people failed lah but 18 really not good enough. Got some notes on several topics lah but a bit late, so no time to go through also...gotta read through ourselves.
Revision going BAD...today revised Social Studies so far only...generally okay but needa make sure of the content. Later maybe gonna do some Biology and A Maths...Really must buck up on my A Maths...really worried about it. Actually should revise Physics by end of this week also but no time lahz...that means next week still got a whole lot of stuff to revise!!
Hm...feeling quite lifeless lah...a bit flustered also. Always on my mind...
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Monday, May 03, 2004
Wah...kena the sasser worm...reformatted the damned hard disk twice and finally got the com up and running. That's why never blog for the past two days...finished the com just only. Past two days nothing much happened...typical lor...revise a bit then slack a lot...mid year starts on Thursday and I'm still so slacky...Oh yeah...got a sore throat on sunday...really painful but can't be helped >_<.
Reprimanded by Mrs Chin during assembly period...actually it's a form teacher period. Scold so much...and surely doesn't work one. Scold about what skipping lessons, same old people lah...those slackers lor...always like that one...everything bad originates from them. Anyway whatever she said surely no use one...same reason lor...no clown will listen to advice. Scolded so much...later her baby cannot take it how...? Think she gonna go in labour soon lah...tummy so big liao...without form teacher the class will just get worse...Ms Ismail definitely cannot handle us one.
E Maths did some mid year 2003...quite alright lah...considered that I haven't revised E Maths at all...don't know how to do a few sums. Tomorrow think got revision on loci and probability. Physics just went through the mid year 2002...need a lot more revision on Physics...
A Maths did some don't know what integration lah...something concerning definite integrals...funny funny one...then that Mdm Teo just do finish the sums like free...everyone cannot catch and she block the screen like free also lor...cannot see much of what she wrote. Oh yeah, went through the 2002 mid year also...can die sia, need to WORK HARD on my A Maths, especially sec 3 stuff...know nuts about them.
Higher Chinese kena scolded a bit by Wang Jun...he's a really good teacher...but the class got a few people don't appreciate him lor...after that received the stupid miao xie wen back...got 59 only...my highest compo so far...yeah I know that's REALLY bad...must put in more effort...always damn slack one. Sigh~~...Went through the workbook after that...don't know why Higher Chinese got no practice paper one. The only subject without past year paper to practise leh...geog and social studies also lah...
Overall still needa revise A LOT more and put in much more effort...A Maths and Social Studies exams this week. English and Higher Chinese paper 1 also lah...but those difficult to study...so must whack my A Maths like crazy...
Feeling better liao lah but still not up there yet lor...going crazy liao...so much stuff to do and things to worry about... ...Thinking...again
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