Well I haven't blogged for the longest of time haha. Have been really busy and all, and I really wanted to blog during my busy busy periods cos I cld really vent everything cooped up in myself but I resisted it somehow ya.
Well things are kinda toning down for me, gotta put in more effort to study, really. Have to get my CAP up for certain, if not I wldn't be able to go to SEP without any concerns. But oh well...just do my best and see where it brings me ba.
Well I'm pretty happy with the efforts I made to keep my friendships. Sometimes things just don't happen then I guess it's just down to fate and I'd just say too bad. Nothing much to complain abt my life really. I've got great friends, nice ppl I know ard me, great family members, although I never really express anything in front of them but I still have gratitude for them :) At times I'm kind of glad that I'm no longer in a relationship in that I had been so freaking busy. If it wasn't lab reports it was SMC and if it wasn't SMC it wld be my tests and if it wasn't my tests it wld be Expeditions. I don't even have time for my own social life. I've only went out once since sem started man. Seriously wldn't know how to cope with my academics, which wld certainly have been affected by any other additional things I have. I even had to kind of semi give up tuition to Alicia and Adeline =/
I rmb Joel Boon told me once, in life, it's a give and take situation. You can never get everything to yourself, him referring to his good grades and his not so sports-oriented physique. But he was a super duper uber nice guy, I've gotta say and I'm sure he still is :) yep so it's a give and take for me too, I guess. Having concerned friends and family and especially my grandmother =) pains me to see her being so old and getting more frail ='(
And yea, I kid myself not. I probably ain't as happy as I used to be, but I do have no complaints, no regrets and no looking back already. Using my head, I'm certainly better off with my academics this sem, I tink haha.
On a side note, I'm pretty upset with myself =/ really, it sucks when I know I'm lying to myself and yea lying to someone else. Cld I call it blatant? Maybe =/ I know I want but there're just so much reservations I have. I'm afraid. Of so many different issues that can pop out. I know this too well. I'm certain I need more confidence in myself, more faith and everything else but really it might all be too late alr. Opportunities only come once, and I need to make an opportunity for myself.
What better music to play than one from one of my favourite games up to date, and what a suitable title it has =)
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