Sigh...sometimes I just feel like kicking myself for acting like a child. So silly and stupid. Getting worked up over the slightest of things and being such an idiot even though tt's the last thing I shd be doing. I don't know what I'm doing anymore.
Sometimes I feel helpless and kind of useless as well. It's a similar feeling tt I had before. It's kind of obvious when someone dull like me cld tell tt a person so impt to me is being bothered by stuff and I can't do anything abt it, I can't help in any way at all. Really makes me feel so bad and helpless at myself. I guess tt's prob a reason why I like to blame myself when things go wrong =/ and indeed, the source of frustration was me all along.
Honestly, I am just a fucking lousy guy. What good is my existence in this world if it is not to bring joy but grief and pain to the one I love.
等待
我随时随地在等待
做你感情上的依赖
我没有任何的疑问
这是爱
我猜你早就想要说明白
我觉得自己好失败
从 天堂掉落到深渊
多无奈
我愿意改变
重新再来一遍
我 无法只是普通朋友
感情已那么深
叫我怎么能放手
但你说爱
I only want to be your friend
做个朋友
我在你心中只是 just a friend
不是情人
我感激你对我这样的坦白
但我给你的爱暂时收不回来
So I 我不能只是 be your friend朋友
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