Kinda forgot to mention on the previous post abt little Alan. He certainly has matured in some sense, being somewhat less wilful and playful, being a little more obedient and less mischievious. Time really flies, he's alr pri 3 this year. Having watched him grow up all these years, I'm honestly happy tt he's grown out of being a brat. Not entirely but tt's definitely a good beginning, which makes him a lot more lovable :)
The bulk of this post shd really go to the past three days I spent in Sarimbun as a camp trainer with Innotrek. Having been called upon last minute on sunday night, I rushed to pack my bag for the 3 days 2 nights camp. Generally, it has been fulfilling for me for sure. I had great fun with group 3, getting to know v lovable kids and some not so lovable ones haha. This experience definitely helps me in my teaching career in the future. I still haven't decided if I'd stay in that line for long but I'll see how things go first.
In all honesty, day 1 was quite a drag as I was entirely new to this camp facilitator thingy, being v unsure of the camp surroundings and what to do, etc etc. With many doubts in my head, plus the high element activites which were extremely draining on me, I found myself feeling really tired at the end of day 1. There was a tinge of regret in my decision at that point in time. That I've gotta admit as much. The debrief and stuff after settling the campers was particularly tiring as well. And a lot of things kind of didn't go smoothly and we had to improvise here and there, making things even more difficult as I was kinda unsure of some stuff. But well, I learnt quite a bit there for sure.
Day 2 was much better, with the water activities being particularly enjoyable but the cleaning up of my shoes after that and at home was terrible. Absolutely. The track shoes don't seem v usable anymore zzz but i tink still can la. Drying in my kitchen right now haha, along with my court shoes, which I needa use tmr!! Anyways, the rest of the activities was kinda self run. Outdoor cooking was a mess and I made a mistake then which was not v nice to a few of the campers but yea I've learnt from it for sure. The rest were pretty dry but still okay. Kind of tired throughout due to the lack of slp. Campfire was quite good. Felt tt the "emcees" were fantastic. Really. Kind of an eye opener in some sense. I cld certainly pick up some stuff from them haha :)
Day 3 was a drag cos of the clean up but in the end, we got the job done. Yes haha, a bit sad that I din get to talk to the grp properly before we bade farewell but I guess I'll just email them the photo i took of them. Din have time to take one tgt with them but too bad for myself haha. Din bring camera also, used my hp sia.
Have badminton tmr, hopefully my shoes can dry if not i gotta use my adidas shoes not meant for sports =.=" cui man haha.
Feeling a little down now, maybe cos of post camp blues and maybe cos the weather is a little humid. And prob just a little cos of myself yep. But it's just too bad for myself I'd say. Too bad. Too lousy.
泪水将我淹没到底谁该难过
究竟是谁放掉这段感情
我才终于明白办不到的承诺
就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货
请告诉她我不爱她
笑着难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话
别告诉她我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答
我不爱我不痛我不懂
我的心早已掏空
真心话言不由衷
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