it hurts. it does. it just does. it's an inexplicable thing to be explaining. what a dreadful day, one tt supposedly marks the end of the long and draining exams where the long awaited holidays begins. it was supposed to be an enjoyable one. but it wasn't meant to be. it just wasn't meant to be.
i'm torn into half as to what i ought to feel abt this. my head tells me to let it go, let it be free but my heart tells me otherwise. there isn't a half full glass this time.
i always had both a pessimistic and optimistic side of myself. the pessimistic side tells me to be prepared for the worst and the optimistic side tells me tt wadeva happens it can never be the worst tt can ever happen to you. however, neither works this time. it's just a different game altogether.
it isn't pain but it's painful.
If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms
If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife
I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I'm praying you're the one I'd build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms
'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side
I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms
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