Slept at 4 in the morning. No reason, no match to watch either. Just deeply thinking about some stuff. Even as I went to bed, my mind was still wandering, couldn't sleep. Woke up at 12...or rather I woke up no less than five times during my sleep. So noisy, my parents. Woke up that time so drowsy...ate my breakfast at 12.30 I think. And had my lunch at 1.30 (!!). Yes, was feeling bloated...anyway, went off to do my work lor, as usual sorta get distracted at times. Yeah, then later my parents went off for some wedding dinner, and I was left alone, peaceful studying environment at last, heh.
Didn't bother to go out buy dinner. Or rather can say I'm lazy lah, but still the fresh air out there would've helped. Ate cup noodles for dinner. Then ate a load more of rubbish as well haha.
Nothing much to much to say leh, later wanna watch Euro. Last game liao. And tomorrow Youth Day somemore, so must watch. Go Portugal!! Hate Greece haha.
I think maybe gonna type some paragraphs of stuff lah, in Chinese as usual. Feel that Chinese more elegant leh. And our roots originated from China haha, crapping again...anyway just feel like it lah, when I got some stuff to express yep.
嘿嘿，觉得还蛮想写些东西。当我诗意大发或者深有感触之际，都会想写几段随笔来表达自身的想法。就算没有人想看也无所谓啦，只要能够表达自己就够了。所以若真的有人看的话，请多多包涵，多多指教，有何错误请务必告诉我。谢谢。
我觉得自己完全像个白痴，连碰面的机会少之又少，还敢痴心妄想。感觉上自己内心很痛苦，她在我脑海里挥散不去。但我早已意识到她是不会看上我这个平凡的人。不，我也许比平凡人更差劲，更没用。以前我们俩的关系还不算太坏，普通朋友嘛，有时还蛮谈得来的。但最近我们的友谊却似乎开始冷淡了。何止冷淡...简直差不多没有沟通。也许是因为她心情不好吧...但是她好像因什么事件而困扰...她始终好像不愿把心事让人知道。我还真没用，看到她心灵受到重创我却无法为她作什么事，更无法适当地安慰她。我早就知道自己是无法得到她的芳心，但却始终没法把她从心中沫灭，也无法放下她不管。最让我感到无助的是我没办法让她开心、快乐的过生活。这是我这一生中的遗憾。我一直想着她，想着她可爱的面貌，想着她可爱的想法，想着她可爱的性格，想着围绕着她的每一件事。我也卑视自己的无能，自己无法让她开心，自己的无用。如果我能够让她快乐的过生活，就算我在她眼中并不起眼，也没在她心中有任何特别的地位，我也终身无憾。
你听得到
有谁能比我知道 妳的温柔像羽毛
秘密躺在我怀抱 只有妳能听得到
还有没有人知道 妳的微笑像拥抱
多想藏着妳的好 只有我看得到
站在屋顶只对风说 不想被左右
本来讨厌下雨的天空 直到听见有人说爱我
坐在电影院的二楼 看人群走过
怎么那一天的我们 都默默的微笑很久
我想我是太过依赖 在挂电话的刚才
坚持学单纯的小孩 静静看守这份爱
知道不能太依赖 怕妳会把我宠坏
妳的香味一直徘徊 我舍不得离开
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