Maybe next time won't use com so often liao, hopefully weekends then use ba...cos everytime turn the com on at 11 then will tend to use until 1. Then become very tired...don't know whether should use or not...better not to lah but...nvm lah will do.
Today woke up late >_<. But ok lah ah? Went to sign the hearts for the Presidents' Challenge thingy. Mr Ang said the first 10k will be put on bus 197. Then next 10k on bus 196, don't know why never choose other buses, like 76, haha. Nothing much happened today..went auditorium for english lor, write some draft thingy for compo give so little time to think and write, handed in a rather shabby one lah. Don't know whether Marcus and Malcolm wanna buy gift for Mr Tik liao, they like not enthu liao, if the class not gonna give then I buy one myself lor, get others to chip in perhaps. Bio did some practical, quite simple leh, o'level paper somemore. CME was great, watched the movie called "12 Angry Men". It's really good, although no time to watch finish. Next week continue. Really nice lor. About this guy accused of murdering his father and with all odds against himself. Then the jury of 12 people supposed to make final decision whether to sentence him guilty or not. Starting was 11-1, in favour of guilty, then later that sole guy said so much about the loop holes and stuff and watch until even, 6-6. Really glued to it. And the fact that the whole 1 hour plus so far all in the jury room deciding, and it keeps me glued to the screen. Really great.
Actually wanted go tm with Edwin and Bryan lah, but Edwin got the GSSP, his name not in the list then go ask Mdm Kwok about it lah. On the way Bryan totally dissuading him from going at all, I felt that it was best to leave the decision to himself though. Saw some news on TK at night, I think they changing to autonomous school next year? I don't know. Not sure what the thing meant anyway.
I feel that I'm a total idiot, got a rare chance and let it slip past my fingers so easily, didn't even try. I ought to kill myself for it...argh. Sounded tired and like a bit frustrated...I was like...oh man, didn't even show some concern. Feel so depressed and remorseful. Feel so useless, can't help a least bit. I'm so sorry for everything I did wrong...sigh...
为什么每次想换主题，总是回到原点？真是的...要尝试不同的写法。我写的似乎越来越没品质了。
我还蛮满意现在的生活。我有一群死党，不管做什么都很愉快。与他们在一起十分好玩，没有任何无聊的时刻。课业虽然是个蛮重的包袱，但是我确能够好好地掌握住大部分的要点。但是这也许只是表面上而已吧。我内心却还真难受。感觉似乎随时都会停下脚步而放声大哭一场。虽然内心深处真的很悲伤，很想哭，但实际上我根本哭不出来。这让我脆弱的心灵受到更大的折磨与煎熬。我是多么的想对别人倾诉我内心的挣扎，我心里的感受，我对她的感觉。我并不认为有谁可了解我的感受。我只希望能够再度遇见她，而让我把握机会，向她表示我对她的情感。
想见妳
疲倦的背包 它不问我是否寂寥 无奈的手表
孤单地走过每一秒 阳光静悄悄 街上有人拥抱
我听得到 没有人知道 口袋里我藏着 妳的味道
想见妳 没有妳 城市再炫也没意义
热闹的全都是妳幻影 想见妳 心太急
狂奔拥挤的人群里 多希望 下一秒就见到妳
天虽然很高 思念像云笼罩 我很低潮 我所有沉默
如果妳看得到 给我拥抱 微风轻轻飘 寂寞在笑声里
默默喧闹 只有我知道 不需要再寻找 谁的依靠 想见妳
没有妳 每天生活只剩呼吸 闭上眼 晃动的 全都是妳
想见妳 我的心 其实从来不曾离去 这一生只想和你在一起
想见妳 没有妳 每天生活只剩呼吸 闭上眼 晃动的
全都是妳 想见妳 我的心 其实从来不曾离去
全世界最重要的就是妳
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