100th post at last...nice blog, threw my frustrations, my pain, my happiness, my joy all in here. But guess won't have much of a chance to use it anymore. Yeah. Past two days I wasn't really able to use my com even. Just so much to say, for the past two days, many things happened but I'm not gonna relate those terrible things.
Yesterday, which is Friday was My Jackson Tik's last day in VS. Feeling so sad. He's the best Chem teacher around, at least to me. His notes and stuff really useful and the way he teaches is impressive. A pity he wasn't trained at NIE. How I hoped he could at least see us through our o's, that's just so saddening. Ok lah, not trying to put Ms Yeo down but she just isn't as good as Mr Tik IMOH, and to many others. We bought those kindda ship in the bottle for him and on it was a 'Thank You". Not the most impressive of all gifts but it wasn't bad. The card was pretty nice with our extra message haha, I think Jeffrey and gang came up with some Chinese poem about Shing Yang and stuff. It was pretty good.
Next was the promotiong ceremony. Waited long enough for it. Nothing to do with me but it feels good to put on the ranks for the cadets and of course, my committee members. A day well spent. Missed Physics tuition but made up for it today. It was really good to see the new committee rising up and taking on our responsibilities as the next batch of leaders. I'm sure they'll make it better than what we had done. We had a totally disappointing year in leading the unit. Individual awards are nothing compared to winning competitions with the unit. The past years in VSRCCU had really benefited me much, and I really thank everyone who had helped along the way, especially all the previous batches of seniors.
Got the letter for Directors' Award on Thursday. Wasn't exactly excited or elated about it, felt just normal. I don't really think I deserve it much. I don't see why the other committee members wouldn't get it if they were nominated. Cos the unit wasn't really led properly by me yeah and things just went wrong. Much of the problems really lied in me...argh...
For today, went to school for Physics make up, nuclear Physics almost done. Then went to Edwin's house to slack. Today he was the man. Haha, doubt anyone will understand but must keep it under the wraps. Went there to slack all the way unti tuition. Mwaha. Then he like don't know what...damn paiseh like that haha. He ain't gutsy enough lah, hey when read my blog don't angry hor, just stating what I feel. Is it really that difficult to wave and say 'hi' or say 'bye'? Er...anyway, he was like totally scared...don't know lor, tried to help him liao, and gave him suggestions, Bryan also tried to help but then he just couldn't do it -_-". Seriously I think his plan a bit far-fetched and impossible, of course unless...haha.
Feeling quite...don't know how to say, feeling very mixed up. Sorta miserable lah. Things are not going my way and I can foresee that it will probably not. Just gotta try harder next time ya. Sorta feeling some regret for not doing what I should. I sure hope it'll not be too late...
我觉得很累，真得很累。我已经几乎想到疯了。没机会了吧，我就是这么懦弱的一个人。什么都做不了，却什么都想做。我想与她厮守一生，可是我知道她的心已在别人的身上了。我得加把劲儿，努力地向目标前进。我不想等到一切无法挽回之际才后悔莫及。说出来倒不是件艰难的事，后果应该会让我心碎吧，所以我一直都犹豫不决。我想为她做的事有这么多。我感觉得到眼眶已渐渐有些眼泪缓缓得流下。那是绝望的泪水，重伤的泪水。我是多么的怯弱无能，多么的脆弱。为了她，我什么都愿意做。
说爱你
我的世界 变得奇妙更难以言喻
还以为 是从天而降的梦境
直到确定 手的温度来自你心里
这一刻 我终于勇敢说爱你
一开始 我只顾着看你装做不经意 心却飘过去
还窃喜 你 没发现我 躲在角落
忙着快乐 忙着感动 从彼此陌生到熟
会是我们从没想过 真爱 到现在 不敢期待
要证明自己 曾被你想起 really
我胡思乱想就从今天起 I wish
像一个陷阱 却从未犹豫 相信
你真的愿意 就请给我惊喜
关于爱情 过去没有异想的结局
那天起 却颠覆了自己逻辑
我的怀疑 所有答案因你而明白
转啊转 就真的遇见 Mr. Right
我的世界 变得奇妙更难以言喻
还以为 是从天而降的梦境
直到确定 手的温度来自你心里
这一刻 也终于勇敢说爱你
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