...Almost late for school today, left home same time...the stupid bus wait so long never come so I decided to go Paya Lebar MRT there wait...bad choice lor...go there quite a lot of TK, TKG and CCHS people, then all the buses come they chiong up, no needa board. Lucky 155 only VS people take, or else confirm late liao...
Anyway school nothing much...same old boring stuff. The stupid Mdm Kwok, quite pro. Teach too slow, and then not enough time then blame my class for lack of response. No matter how fast we think or response, surely cannot cover what she intended to within just three periods...
Forgot got what other lessons liao lah...oh yeah Higher Chinese, standard lor, digress until last part then continue the chapter. Physics practical...finished everything so fast, not much to do, but my graph plotting got some problems, I think.
Biology a bit nothing to say lor, no one giving Ms Ismail respect...even Marcus...I mean monitor also don't then like the rest of the class sorta won't give a hoot...Just hope things will get better lah, cos she gonna write testimonial for us lor, then everyone like that...
I was quite furious lor, the stupid financial talk last minute than say today for A-E damn annoying lor. Stupid. First thing is last minute than say have this, that was yesterday. Then now even more last minute say for my class is tomorrow. Obvious the information no disseminated properly lor...basket. Got appointment with doctor today then last minute cancel, my deposit gone liao. Quite angry.
Blackout at like 10.15pm I guess until about 12am. Tried to use some light to study but cannot lah...I think is almost islandwide. Sick to the max.
Feeling not bad cos things getting somewhat better =). But today got nothing...hope things get warmer, haha.
看着妳开始活泼起来，我心里也变得开朗多了
看到妳心情比较好，我也觉得非常开心
希望这样的情况会持续下去
因为我真的不想看到妳流泪或伤心
真希望妳会得到永久的幸福
只要你过得快乐，我也会开心
我只想待在妳身旁，当个守护妳的守护天使
守护着妳拥有美好的一切
关怀方式
寂寞开在心事旁 随手种一些伤感
不让星星来窥探 找个沉默的夜晚
找个沉默的夜晚 不让星星来窥探
随手种一些伤感 寂寞开在心事旁
我的关怀方式是妳无法察觉的悲凉
只能在妳不经意时才锁上我心房
妳往常的亲切友善是我今生的遗憾
受伤后无悔地埋在不流露的脸上
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Monday, June 28, 2004
First day of school re-opening...first thing I did wrong was wake up a bit late. Not really late...I just dilly dally until I was 10 min off my usual time...then took a later bus, reached school later (Isn't it super obvious!?)...but I thought the bus would be packed until cannot squeeze in but good thing I was able to.
Then reach school a bit lost cos long time never do morning assembly and stuff lah, so just slacked around, normally I'd just finish up my homework that I don't know how to do. Morning announcements a bit a lot, drag until our hall assembly finished, so that's additional one period of announcements, still got reading period kena hacked off. Ok whatever, I don't really care yeah? Physics...admin stuff until almost one period hacked off again. So left a bit revision on CRO and Mrs Foo also showed us the real circuit components. The textbook sucks big time, circuit components only like one or two pages only...no explanation, leave out some stuff somemore. Tuition notes still better =).
Then later Geog(E)...quite fierce, cos needa do so much stuff. The O'level paper I up to now also only do the Geog(E) part, SS never touch. Tomorrow sure screwed one. Still got E Maths work lah but a bit only. Bad thing is my Geog(E) gile totally in shambles...can straight go die liao...seems like must hand in tomorrow, want my head or not...
After that E Maths, revision on Vectors, dozed off most of the revision part, cos I really know liao, then do the work, not much difficulty except for some stuff here and there. Then got Higher Chinese...do some new chapter. Yesh...one and a half periods Wang Jun was like talking about China history about the emperors until reach the last one which is on the topic yes...left 15 min...nothing to say.
Suddenly remembered the 关怀方式 lyrics...then also yeah...can memorise leh, cool. 1Nice song, really nice, quite difficult to find nice songs like this nowadays cos now always hip hop, R&B and stuff, nice lah but lacking love ballads like this.
Anyway, my homework enough to kill me...don't talk about it liao can cry...so much work...first day only lor. Anyway just now saw a bit of some Lee Kuan Yew interview. He's damn good lor, nothing to say. Thumbs up for him. Charismatic, one of the most I've seen...ok enough of this stuff lah >_<...
feeling sorta guilty, but long time never hear liao now suddenly, quite happy. But either way, no matter what was said, I still feel some guilt...
我对你的情义也许不过是自己一厢情愿
但我并不需要你任何的承诺
有美好的结果我当然会开心
但是若真的只有伤心的余地
我也绝对不会后悔认识你
也不会忘记与你曾经度过的好时光
简单爱
说不上为什么 我变得很主动
若爱上一个人 什么都会值得去做
我想大声宣布 对妳依依不舍
连隔壁邻居都猜到我现在的感受
河边的风 在吹着头发飘动
牵着妳的手 一阵莫名感动
我想带妳 回我的外婆家
一起看着日落 一直到我们都睡着
我想就这样牵着妳的手不放开
爱能不能够永远单纯没有悲哀
我 想带妳骑单车 我 想和妳看棒球
想这样没担忧 唱着歌 一直走
我想就这样牵着妳的手不放开
爱可不可以简简单单没有伤害
妳 靠着我的肩膀 妳 在我胸口睡着
像这样的生活 我爱妳 妳爱我
想 简简单单 爱~
想 简简单单 爱~
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Sunday, June 27, 2004
Must continue what I said yesterday...got stuff which I missed out lol. Got too much details to cover liao...POC was good, excellent in fact. The songs they sang...wouldn't say very nice lah but still touching haha. Sec 1s sing don't know what song, sec 2s sang Superman while sec 3s sang Truly Madly Deeply. Got catered lunch but $100 for it wasn't exactly worth it.
After everything was like end up last sec 4 to leave, cos promised to go out with Edwin lor, then Elias, Reyneth and Zheng Cai a bit irritating ah, but forget it. They joking only...Met up with him at 4.30pm at Orchard MRT, or should I say supposedly...because last minute David sir started checking the tents mah, then I help a bit and help keep also so a bit late, but was later cos I dilly dally lol. Then I wear my Spain shirt and track pants Aaron ask me whether I going out with girl...>_<. Quite nothing to say but anywayz, before reaching the bus stop I saw the wonderful 36 zoom past me so became even later. In th end reached at 5.10 like that, lucky he went around to shop first or else I'll be strangled by him sia.
We were like walk around a while only...went Taka first then got nothing much, then went Heeren and I bought a new wallet, quite pricey lah but nvm...Then went back to Kinokuniya and bought a lot of comics, got 5 books. Wah...pocket got hole liaoz. Went KFC eat...then was like tired like mad...can die sia. Along the way talked a lot of stuff here and there yep. Went home on the MRT...I think got one couple laughing at me, because I was like sorta dozing off while standing then everytime the MRT jerks I sorta wake up. Then everytime wake up see the female laughing...at me I presume, anyway heck, too tired to care.
Today was like nothing at all until dinner time lor...my granny got the date for the wedding dinner wrong, so my father and mother like a bit went there and realised wrong date. So came back bring me for dinner. Was like go find table a bit leave my granny behind, so poor thing...anyway when eat finish I went to kindda help her lah but also don't know whether consider help...cos it was something which I ought to do...
Anyway tired, tomorrow school reopen, homework not entirely done and don't know bring what books to school...hopefully won't lose touch...who knows when will be the next time I'll use my com again.
Realised this time is the first time using lyrics from female artiste, so this time never make slight tweaks or changes I guess...
遇见妳，让我很快乐
但是也依然让我伤透了心
我不曾让妳知道我对妳的感受
只是静静地待在一旁为妳祈祷
祈祷妳永远不再伤心，只会有开心的时光
即使妳的心不在我这边，而在似乎在其他人身上
我只想妳获得永久的快乐，永远的幸福美满
就算妳心中并无视于我的存在，我也不介意
我只希望妳生活会过得愉快
只要妳生活过得非常快乐，要我内心承受再多的伤感，我也在所不惜
但是我未曾因伤心或任何原因而后悔遇见你...
决定爱你
爱你 不需要原因
只要有一颗真心 分隔两地 也可以传给你
爱你 不会有距离
只要你在我心里 随时随地 我也可以感觉得到你
小时候 常常担心一个问题
男人结婚之后 到底会不会外遇
我的爸爸妈妈在我小学三年级
他们离婚了 其实我非常的伤心
长大后觉得没什么了不起
爱情并不是生活里全部的事情
只要此时此刻 我们爱的很用心
就足够我一辈子去回忆
有时候 我也会碰到不如意
宁愿哈哈大笑 也不要哭哭啼啼
付出去的感情 就算都没有回应
可以碰到你 已经觉得非常幸运
失败做错了 也没什么关系
换个发型或是唱唱歌 发泄情绪
不要浪费时间 一直躲在后悔里
要找回那颗 不认输的心
决定要做的事情 不要轻易受打击
今天不行还有明天可以
决定要谈的爱情 不要随便就放弃
幸福全部要靠自己去努力争取
有天我一定会等到 生命里那位英雄
有天我一定会找到 被我的爱感动的人
喜欢 赖在你身旁 看你说话的模样
就算我们不能地久天长 喜欢为了你而忙
看你开心的模样 算没有 我想要的答案
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Saturday, June 26, 2004
Got just so much to say within a span of two days, things about the camp both positive and negative. But I shall not dwell on the negative side. Okay, start on Friday.
Came to school much earlier, then helped out with the campfire. Not very good I've gotta say. Then later guests and all come in and stuff. Okay fine lah, I was supposed to be a guest also lah but came way earlier, lol. It's like really great to see the seniors back on the turf which they used to be in, spiritually not physically. Campfire wasn't exactly great but it was alright. Really gotta thank Alan sir, Tze Hin sir, Santosh sir for still being so concerned about the unit. I mean Alan sir got GP on the next morning at 8am lor, then he still stayed back to help out with the sec 3s until 3 plus. Santosh sir also had exams on Monday onwards but still stayed back until end of POC to help out. Tze Hin sir also had his own stuff to do...really appreciate their help, salute them. I think for the sec 3s day 1 was alright, day 2 become real sluggish, day 3 definitely there's improvement.
After campfire Santosh sir, Alan sir and Tze Hin sir think like mad then formulate some stuff up, meet the sec 3s early morning until 2 plus I think. But it was really important. In the morning the sec 3s attitude I have no positive comments but after that suddenly become real good. Anyway, our present almost couldn't make it >_<, luckily could. Didn't sleep at all the whole morning, not even a wink...go practise the POC songs ah...in the end also not very good. Casting it aside, I think the sec 3s have learnt a lot from this camp, I believe we will see in time, their potential being unleashed, totally, then I can safely say they'll do better than anyone else. I've got full confidence. Things more or less settled and stuff. I believe they will make it.
Not digressing further...breakfast got prata sia, damn nice, but the cadets eat bread and jam...pathetic sia...but nvm about that, training camp supposed to eat shit one.
The POC was pretty I'd say, considering their own conditions and stuff, and the big change from day 2. I'd say it was really good, despite the poor circumstances. But in amphitheatre a bit not very nice atmosphere but still ok. Seriously was sorta close to tears lor...damn emotional sia. Held it back up though. The gifts were great, OP pencil case from sec 1s, scrap book from sec 2s, new red cross shirt from sec 3s. We gave them photo frame with inspirational quotes that will help them on their way while leading the unit. The atmosphere was there lor, damn nice, damn sad. Double thumbs up from me for everything done for the POC =).
Many disturbances in our overnight stay but it's worthwhile if the unit will become stronger than before, and I'm sure it will! Positive! Eh...anyway pull up training got a bit head way liao, at last, small mouse growing liao, hope to become a big rat haha. Like Hilmi and Kennick like that, damn fierce sia, but first thing must get fatter.
Now my head blocked, cannot think of much else, got chance another say somemore, lol.
第一眼看到妳
我的世界就只剩下等妳
不管生命将我们带到什么地方
是笑或泪
我都等妳
跟随一个自己爱的人
海角天边是一种幸福
永远陪着自己爱的人
就算哭泣泪水也是甜的
孤寂像火般的燃烧着我
怯懦的我
想像自己该何去何从
是勇敢往妳的方向追
说出心底的那声渴望
还是静静燃烧黑夜
美人鱼
我在沙滩划个圆圈 属于我们安逸世界
不用和别人连线 我不管黑夜来自深渊
也不在乎身上的鳞片 爱情能超越一切
只要妳在我身边 所有蜚语流言
完全视而不见 请不要匆匆一面
一转身就沉入 海平线 传说中妳为爱甘心被搁浅
我也可以为妳潜入海里面 怎么忍心断绝
忘记我不变的誓言 我眼泪断了线
现实里有了我对妳的眷恋 我愿意化作雕像等妳出现
再见再也不见 心碎了飘荡在海边
妳抬头就看见
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Thursday, June 24, 2004
Wow, woke up damn late again...decided not to go school, cos gotta cut my hair, then very ma fan. Was like happily listening to my cds halfway then suddenly Reyneth called at about 2.30pm say got meeting at 6pm...I was like quite shocked. Suddenly last minute say have sia, then I fast chiong to cut my hair liao. Sorta shorter now...(isn't it obvious)...Then also no time to finish my comprehension, now still left summary, oh man, can die. I think tomorrow morning finish first then go see the camp lah. Then went school, reached at about 5.30 I presume, eyes damn blur, could hardly spot them in the canteen. Then go listen Mrs Raj talk talk talk. Alright lah, she has the interests of the unit at heart but in a different direction from us...but still good. I was there like one and a half hours only, already got so much "problems". Also nothing much to say lah, it's their own style of doing things but irresponsibility sorta prevailing in some of them...a little tired x_x. Edwin ask me go out today...if I went that means no need attend meeting liao cos I'm sorta uncontactable...>_<. In the end I believe Mrs Raj still wants to discuss with Ms Lyana lah but also good...Get more opinions.
End of round robin for Euro 2004...In the end teams like Spain, Italy Germany kena kicked out...sian man...Czech the only team that got full 9 points and then still every match make comeback lor, comeback from an unfavourable scoreline. That's great. Tomorrow going stay in school for the camp...should be fun ba...think it'll be good, haha. Steal their group stuff, mwahaha...be bad guy...
Feeling tired. No reason lor...hm...must work hard...little time left before prelims liao...I think I'm crazy...yeah...am I trying to waiting for the right time or just trying to comfort myself...?
同样的早餐桌前
仿佛刚刚发生的只是幻境一场
但妳的双眼红肿
我知道的确发生了某些变化在妳身上
某些我不确定的事
柔情的阳光直接晒进窗里来
映照着妳半边脸颊
此刻我但愿是妳的守护天使
带着妳徜徉在森林里
还给妳所有平静与安详
爱妳比我重要
妳的拥抱像微风经过了树梢 轻轻吹着那边等待妳的懊恼
等了多久用不着让妳知道 因为爱妳比我重要
妳说抱歉 我觉得总是忘不掉 我只能用微笑来掩饰那种难熬
有的悲伤总不想让妳看到 妳的快乐比我重要
我对妳太在意 责备都舍不得用力 怕妳又被伤了心
如果我挥不去 多努力的爱妳 直到都闭不上回忆
我 我还是愿意 陪着妳忘记
妳说抱歉 我觉得总是忘不掉 我只能用微笑掩饰那种难熬
有的悲伤总不想让妳看到 妳的快乐比我重要
我对妳太在意 责备都舍不得用力 怕妳又被伤了心
如果我挥不去 多努力的爱妳 直到都闭不上回忆
我 我还是愿意 陪着妳忘记
街上的这一场雨还在下 我看着妳的泪流 我用温柔 代替回答
我对妳太在意 责备都舍不得用力 怕妳又被伤了心
如果我挥不去 多努力的爱妳 直到都闭不上回忆
我 我还是愿意 陪着妳忘记
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Wednesday, June 23, 2004
Feeling damn shitty in the morning...really damn sucky...sigh...then could hardly do a thing lor, crappy...everything so crapped up. Felt slightly better after rummaging my cds and listening to some of them, but still...don't know what to say lah. Feel so helpless and useless lor, argh. Up till now homework still not finished, might as well jump down and end everything sia.
Got so much stuff...wanna die liao lah...think got no hope and no chance liao, hahzz...thinking...not asking too much I guess, just want happiness, not for me though...just don't want to see sadness shrouding and causing pain...
Yeah, tomorrow start of VSRCCU camp, I think maybe go see how they run...but maybe go school study first lah, gotta finish my stuff. Anyway I think David sir enough liao, he's good enough to take care of the sec 3s in case anything crops up. Then again, maybe I'll go look at them at times...so many things to do, I think after Saturday got one big load off my shoulder and passed to the sec 3s, less worries also. Don't know sia, my speech only one page, rewrote it. Hopefully on that day won't cry, cos really leaving the unit for good, no longer a cadet or NCO or anything. Most maybe next time got chance to come back as a senior or VI only. As the day comes closer, can feel the sadness and relief. Very contradicting, I know. Time to throw really all I've got to my academics, and hopefully forget other things...but some things can never, ever be forgotten.
This time put two lyrics cos got both chinese & english version...
害怕
我突然觉得有点怕 爱跟生活的一切
妳以为我知道怎么拆开 我们的想法落差
我的爱 是说停不能停 已经弄的不能说是曾经
也可说出我是错的 爱未曾变成真的
也没藏到多少妳需要的爱 我不再
去执着我是谁 我是我在夜里掉的眼泪
也可说我看不开的 为妳我能做的
竟还没让妳相信是爱情 左右妳我
而哭泣都是因为爱 也逼自己不掉泪
让往日不只是有妳 这网里我也撑着 拼了命的守着
Endless Road
The truth is tearing up my heart
I can't recognize this place
The endless road without a stop sign
Can't even find a stranger this time
Why am I still holding back my tears
In this loneliness there's nothing to fear
Every chord still seems a wonder
How we could be together
Every time I ask if this would be the last
Why am I still talking to myself
Hoping you will have the keys to my cell
Every song might calm the weather but it just draws me deeper
How do I get out of this I think I never will...
A crystal forming in the eye
Maybe this would be the last
The winding path down my face
Till I begin to taste the bitterness inside
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Tuesday, June 22, 2004
Supposed to meet up at 5pm with Elias and was like wait until 5.20pm...worse thing was that I reached there super early, don't know why the bus take 20 min only...wait until my butt pain >_<. Then went to eat at the food court at parkway. Went around looking for the photo frame to put the quotes and our picture...found quite a few lah but too ex, then finally found one at those photo shop thingy, $12, and I paid for it...Now quite poor ah, scared they don't return ah.
Reyneth was like never go home to change at all, straight meet us at parkway...then go to TKGS liao...lame sia. Thought gonna rain but didn't, too bad didn't rain. We walked all the way to the main entrance and we were like loitering outside for nothing, Elias and his boom box...lame then finally go in. Stupid sia, ask us meet at 6.45 then like 7.30 then start...could see the organisation and stuff rather poorly done, then so many parts got screwed up. So soft, cannot hear them and don't know what they doing upstage and they're using mic somemore...Light the campfire also got problems. Wah...cannot take it. The events also not very smooth, the audience also not really hyped up or involved. Don't know what they doing sia. Bet our school one on Friday will be much better, definitely lor. Can say it's a waste of time. The refreshments were not bad lah but it seems quite little for everyone to grab a bite. Maybe shouldn't have gone...then got this TK cadet called what Theresa SMS Reyneth quite a few times, then I was beside him and -_-"...interested in him ah, haha. Feeling tired sia, couldn't sleep much last night. Then the campfire also...er...no good, makes me even more lethargic. But their guestbook quite special. Throughout the campfire Reneth and Elias laming around, insult here and there then make fun of things, until I tired sia. Really super lame. Oh yeah, the campfire like not campfire sia, light it a bit late, and then still hardly add firewood and kerosene one, so small somemore, then in the end the flame was like ember...nothing to say at all. Seems like last chance liao, till a long time? Sigh, feeling quite lousy...maybe should've done something.
Tired...maybe sleeping earlier, steal some time on the com, lol. I think tomorrow maybe cannot liao, haha.
Hm...I want things to get better...hope so.
可爱女人
想要有直升机 想要和妳飞到宇宙去
想要和妳融化在一起 融化在宇宙里
我每天每天每天在想想想想著妳
这样的甜蜜 让我开始相信命运
感谢地心引力 让我碰到妳
漂亮的让我面红的可爱女人
温柔的让我心疼的可爱女人
透明的让我感动的可爱女人
坏坏的让我疯狂的可爱女人
世界这样大而我而我只是只小小小的蚂蚁
而我用尽全力全力全力保护妳
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Bad day that started out for me. First I woke up late, rather late, then rushed to the stupid bus stop. Wait for bus I think got 15 min lor, wait until can die sia. Then reach school, I think already 20 min late for lessons. The better part was that
I couldn't find the damned class lor. Searched the whole seventh floor, all the maths rooms empty, now sec 4 classrooms liao though...go AV room also empty, then go library study myself...no choice. Until 1pm then saw them coming out, go ask Jacob he say what go put some note at AV room, didn't see leh...>_<. Then Edwin ask me go eat lunch, declined the offer, Marcus and gang also asked me go eat, but didn't feel like it at all.
Yeah, and if you ask me how come I'm using the com, I'm puzzled as well, don't know how come can use leh...hopefully at night can use also lah, anyway use a bit now then continue to mug liao lah.
Feeling quite restrained cos everything also cannot do...sian. That means after school holidays I think most prob I no communication with outside world liao, haha. Shouldn't be able to touch com...feels damn sad. Hopefully not.
豆浆油条
喝纯白的豆浆 是纯白的浪漫 望着妳
可爱脸蛋 和妳纯真的模样
我傻傻对妳笑 是妳忧愁解药 妳说我
就像油条 很简单却很美好
我知道 妳和我就像是豆浆油条 要一起
吃下去 味道才会是最好 妳需要我的傻笑
我需要妳的拥抱 爱情就是要这样它才不会淡掉
我知道 有时候 也需要吵吵闹闹 但始终
也知道 只有妳对我最好 豆浆离不开油条
让我爱妳爱到老 爱情就是要这样它才幸福美好
我知道 都知道 妳知道 妳都知道 好不好
别偷笑 笑 让我知道(就好)
我喝完热豆浆 却念着还想要 妳吃完金黄
油条 爱情又要再发酵
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Monday, June 21, 2004
Yes slept at 5+ for 2 successive mornings. Explain a bit on yesterday cos no chance to blog. Yep. Watched the Czech vs Netherlands games, best game so far, never intended to watch actually but never regretted, exciting game.
Then woke up at 12 like that, then was supposed to go granny's house but then drag until 1+. Was damn pissed actually. I brought a book there to read then my father say this one textbook ah, then I was angry lor, so I didn't bring the book up, and left it in the car. Actually go there for some 端午节 but the irony was that I didn't even taste any dumpling...
Sorta waste of time...go there sit down...yeah that's it. And I mean the people who went was like so little until I was one of the oldest "child" there...oh man, really nothing to say. Oh yeah, had my lunch there, my granny's curry still as good as ever, but maybe it took a toll on my stomach...
After quite some time, my cousin took out his ps, and played a few games, rather lousy games >_<. Then went down play basketball and soccer lol. Only three people...and it wasn't really that fun lah, cos never really play, just kick around the ball and stuff, and for basketball...I think they too short to play, sec 2 liao still one head shorter than me...nvm about that. Then later went some supermart, treat them to drinks, those type of fruitree one carton one, add up my mag plus newpaper about 10 bucks. Omg, open my wallet can feel the air inside...
Go back up then was in the room playing their "new" laptop, yeah new indeed. Still pentium and windows ME nia. The games inside there like some 1990 one leh, quite fun...alright lah, but some too easy. Just nice for those small kids, oldest primary 5 only. Lol, even my cousin also buay tahan my lameness, shows that I'm successfull haha. Forgot to mention my cute cute cousins lol. Toddler only, damn cute, whole day walk around so energetic and damn cute lah, seems pretty smart too. The other one primary one liao but still very cute also, haha.
Dinner was like...curry again...nice lah but...nvm. At least much better than my mother's cooking, I should feel blessed. After dinner was like...don't know, brother just came cos he was swimming in the afternoon. Then played some Harry Potter board game...Quite nice leh, functions something like cluedo like that, just a more childish version. I liked cluedo though.
Then was like, my father say what whole day never study and I was super pissed lor, throughout the whole night even...think I robot ah...even robots need to oil, recharge batteries and take a break lor. Admit losing one day is a lot lah but still, shouldn't like that. Rare occasion to meet up with cousins, cos now cannot go granny's place often liao. He was like black face all night, so never bothered to ask him. Stayed in my room all the time, reading comics, cos always too noisy and stuff. Like every night lor, so noisy, close my door also can hear them shouting that's why take my long breaks at night, and also more people online lah so use com longer, heh. My mother came in and I sorta scolded her...er...yeah shouldn't have done it lah, but...nvm since it's done liao, think she gets the idea although she sometimes a little slow...
Watched Spain vs Portugal, Spain suffered an agonising defeat that put them out of the QF. Oh man, feels so sick. It shouldn't have been 1-0, Spain hit the upright twice, and had many chances, at least deserve a draw but had to say Nuno Gomes goal was magnificient. Portugal sorta a little more dominant and had many chances but that's cos Spain attacking all the way liao, sick...Spain should've at least scored an equaliser then both team can qualify, cos Greece lost to Russia. Wah kao, first time since don't know when Spain didn't qualify for QF at least, damn sad...
Feeling tattered, shattered, torn, worn everything lah. Argh...continue mugging...oh yeah, I'm able to use the com courtesy of my brother, yep, many thanks. Or else won't find my blogging for a long, long time? Maybe, depends.
天使心
看妳在闹 看妳在笑 看妳的眼泪在掉 听妳深夜里的祈祷
看妳在忙 看妳偷懒 看妳对天空吶喊 听妳说妳很烦
我可以飞 我不会累 我擦过妳的眼泪 妳却从来没见过我
我发着光 白色的光 曾掠过妳的脸庞 我懂妳的心事
只因为我是妳的Angel
当妳碰到任何困难 我会守在一旁 带妳越过每一座山
世界总有光明黑暗 至少有我做伴 就让我陪妳到天亮
人心冷漠让妳绝望 妳有我在身旁 不用到处寻找希望
我这里是 安全地带 配合妳生活节拍 别怀疑有我的存在
妳闭上眼 临睡以前 我就会在妳耳边 拿走妳的心事
Baby 我是妳的 Angel
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Saturday, June 19, 2004
Woke up super late. Omg, must use alarm clock liao >_<, really sleeping like a pig head. Woke up in time for lunch yes...then hit my comics liao mwahaha. Then go do some E Maths paper, only finish paper 1, kao, die liao. Got SO MUCH more homework to do...can die. 22 & 23 still got remedial for A Maths...maybe can barely manage to finish it only...and I think I still gonna look at the camp, omg, so many things but so little time.
Big problem with sec 3s again...Now I think their committee will be enough with one chairperson, no one can be the vice, not anyone from what I've seen. Sighz, so much problems. Mrs Raj is having a good time overseas while the sec 3s are slogging down here for the camp, or rather some of them. And I'm racking my brains to see what can be done about this man...argh, must contact her...sick. Got so much stuff to do, must talk to the whole sec 4 somemore. Hopefully all not that busy...
除此之外
Say Goodnight 晚安 谢谢妳陪我一整个夜晚
Close your eyes, be quiet 我明白妳有自己的不安
很多来不及我不曾看见 我只遇见妳的现在
不管妳接受或离开 I hope to stay for a while
除此之外 要妳明白 妳的笑我真是喜欢看
于是我一次又一次等待 其实都还算愉快
除此之外 非常遗憾 妳的心我还是打不开
And if you need somebody 我确定我会在 不会走开
So Goodbye 晚安 舍不得看妳觉得不自在
It's alright, I'm fine 看起来 这故事会写不完
很多差一点妳没有发现 妳只认识我的现
不管妳留下或走开 I'm gonna stay for a while
除此之外 我要妳明白 妳的笑我真是喜欢看
于是我一次又一次等待 其实都还算愉快
除此之外 非常遗憾 妳的心我还是打不开
And if you need somebody 我确定我会在
除此之外 我还在等待 妳的心将为我敞开
But if you need somebody 妳知道我会在 不会走开 不会走开
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Friday, June 18, 2004
Went school early in the morning, to see how the sec 3s do their stuff and Mark briefing them on the camp details etc. I went there and ended up seeing only 4 people, and one of them went off just after a while. Quite pro, even though last minute call for meeting, also shouldn't be so poor attendance, especially since they're sec 3s. Anyway, wasn't really productive, went around doing some stuff here and there. Just realised never assign posts for the camp >_<. In the end, I sorta forced it into them lah, don't know whether they like it but it's really important. Don't think they matured enough to run things without assigned jobs...anyway, have changed ideas on the next committee liao. That Mrs Raj on 3 weeks holidays, yep, leave the whole unit behind without saying anything about next committee. And she won't even be back in time for the camp lor. Stupid sia, back on second day of camp or something. Really crappy, like that how to discuss the committee with her even...think must go find Ms Lyana. Must discuss with the whole committee. Hopefully everyone free sia...
After that studied in school for a while then go for tuition. Bought Lin Jun Jie's new album, Di Er Tian Tang. Overall the songs very nice...expected though, haha. But then the 主打歌 is like main theme song for some online game, so the album like got a few songs revolve about gaming sorta, the lyrics that is but still very nice though. Got one song damn cute. 豆浆油条. Cute and nice haha. Got one English song somemore, not bad. Listen only once so far lah, think the more I listen the more songs I'll like. XD =).
Normal stuff for tuition except saw Alex coming in, cut his hair then with earphone walk in the room, like quite act beng. Lol, maybe. Anyway nothing special. Come home very tired, hahz, standard.
故意
有色眼镜 现在是一种流行 看着一切可以
不让人看穿自己 妳的眼睛 跟着我转个不停
爱情搞点神秘 会不会比较有趣
我爱妳却故意 故意说不爱妳 贪恋在心或身体
我一时想不清晰 我爱妳却故意 故意说不爱妳
只想开心在一起 就请妳原谅我的任性
有色眼镜 很冷酷又很美丽 保持一点距离
因为我还未 ready oh yeah 你的眼睛 散发出一种讯息
我也不会逃避 如果妳要玩游戏
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Thursday, June 17, 2004
Tired sia...saw Charlton and Zhi Xue when walking to tuition. Lol lame sia, Charlton trying to sarcastic that I hip, haha. Go for the tuition...thought I was almost late, but it always starts late, so I was rather early...Saw Ka Fai, yep he said he going Bintan tomorrow with his friends...at night also playing tennis. Omg, that's so nice, can go out and have fun with friends...sighz...
Tuition today again is still stuck at integration, recap on the stuff...haven't reach area under the graph. Sianz, that means homework not sure how to do liaoz. Needa finish up...Mostly left with Maths, the rest sorta can finish faster...
Have I mentioned that my parents are extremely noisy? Close the damned door still can hear them shouting across the house lor. Damn noisy, not conducive for studying. That's why can hardly study at night...
Kiss Me 123
Kiss Me 123 我最爱的那个妳 让我给妳甜蜜 为妳挡风遮雨
Kiss Me 123 唯一爱的就是妳 要和妳在一起 为妳我什么都愿意
爱上你的微笑 一夜睡不着 怎么办才好 因为妳的美丽 让我神魂颠倒
慢慢慢靠近妳 不让妳知道 我的心在跳 闭上我的眼睛 幻想妳赖在我怀抱
别让我失去了妳 别把爱藏在心里 让我听一听 让我听一听 妳的心
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Feeling very tired and lethargic but I slept damn long today, didn't even wake up in time to go study in school >_<. Argh...continue like that I'll die man, die of sleeping too much. Must cut down on my sleep liao, hahaz. Anyway watched the Spain vs Greece match, or rather caught glimpses of it. Spain played pretty well, but couldn't convert their chances. Wasted, drew 1-1. Now I think Portugal probably out liao, unless they beat Spain also lor.
Have to go for A Maths tuition in a while...feel so sian, rather stay at home and try to complete my stupid homework. Maths got so much, now E Maths still left the textbook, and a bit of the VS prelim which can be finished tonight...A Maths still got textbook and two chapters of TYS left, not to mention other homework, omg where can find time to study. Argh...siao liao...don't know what's going on.
Not feeling good...night time maybe then use com again? Tired...tomorrow must go school...hope things get better for me...
就是我
我想了十几个夜晚 我想我一直都在想
什么是完美的感动 我想到开始头痛 妳
说不定也是一样 想要爱却害怕遗憾 妳
说不定也很希望 我可以比妳勇敢
躺在星空下的草地上 心事全都摊开让妳看
满天星星张大眼睛盯着我 想要说 任他们说
他们看 我都不管 我只要 宣布爱妳的人
就是我 对 没有错 就是要 简简单单
就是我 爱妳 爱我 不需要啰嗦
我想了十几个夜晚 我想我一直都在想
什么是完美的感动 我想到开始头痛
妳 说不定也是一样 想要爱却害怕遗憾
妳 说不定也很希望 能和我交个朋友
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Wednesday, June 16, 2004
Just woke up...Yeah stayed up to watch the Netherlands and Germany match. 1-1...pretty nice game. My brother invited his friends over to watch also...But they were playing mahjong all the while lor, hardly watching. Feel proud of my school when one of them sorta look up to my school =). I like it when people praise my school. Feels great.
Anyway, the language in the room was pretty foul and vulgar, yep. Not too surprising. They were like every sentence also got some not-so-nice words coming outta their mouths...anyway, it seems pretty normal. They don't look very beng but seem to be nice people. But I think they sorta good buddies lor, talk lotsa crap, and pretty amusing as well, haha. Gotta go finish up my homework...fast or else no time to study...
My parents think that I'm a robot. Been working the whole afternoon and only took a longer break during dinner, and after dinner immediately must go back and mug in my room. Feeling crappy.
Only come online for one reason...only thinking of two things now. The weather's pretty hot, but I'm feeling cold and shunned or am I just being sensitive? Anyway, I'm just feeling miserable...T_T
Wishing for a miracle...
冻结
不小心回到那一天 不小心一切又重演
妳如此完美的一切 竟会出现在我的世界
妳说话不爱说第二遍 但偏在情人节那一夜
给我妳心爱的项鋉 说了三次对我的爱恋
我那时胡涂 不明白为何妳会哭
后知后觉以后 领悟
冻结那时间 冻结初遇那一天 冻结那爱恋
冻结吻妳那瞬间 我也会疲倦
妳的项鋉 在我身边 带我穿梭回从前
冻结那空间 冻结有妳的世界 冻结那画面
冻结不让它溶解 我若是疲倦 妳的项鋉
在我身边 发光在我胸前 妳的项鋉
在我身边 陪伴着我过每一天
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Tuesday, June 15, 2004
Italy vs Denmark, 0-0, pretty exciting both keepers played played especially for Sorensen. Really saved Denmark. Woke up earlier than usual...go school to do work. Library closed...don't know what to say lo. Unlucky. Then Edwin and Teck Peng say what wanna leave at 12pm...Then I also followed. Kao, just like that pon the GSSP, but seriously now less than 30 people attending liao lor. Can understand, everyday go school just to study...No teacher to observe them or anything. It's like even go there slack also no one cares.
Went to Tampines Mall with Edwin. A bit say take bus 10 then end up wait quite long...Anyway go there eat food court, quite ex. Now a little broke, must save up cash for next time, if there is...Anyway more cash in the wallet doesn't hurt. Come to think of it, he asked me go Orchard tomorrow. I wanna get a new wallet lah but see how first. Doubt I can convince my parents to allow me to go and sponsor me >_<. A bit contradicting myself ah, wanna save up money but wanna buy things...don't know...also a bit siao siao now. Walk around for some time then walked to Century Square...see here and there also nothing much. Saw some pretty nice stuff but didn't bring much money along...A bit regret spending money on my comics, 'cos saw one book that I should've bought instead. Also don't know what to do lah. Feeling tired, don't know why always like that one.
...My father don't allow me to go out tomorrow, then Edwin said he going alone lo. Poor thing, maybe he'll ask Yong Bin to go along? Feel damn bad not being able to go lor...feel damn helpless...can't even help a friend who is feeling down >_<.
Got quite some stuff gonna happen. TKG campfire, got school camp also, think I'll pop in and look once in a while, perhaps. Still got POC, must discuss what to leave behind for the unit. Got rough idea what I wanna do liao...
Hope I'll get blessed again...haha.
星球
在遥远星球 有一颗气球 是我昨晚把它
放在那里的 每晚的夜空 它都会闪烁
发出来的光芒 一直提醒我 虽然它只是一颗气球
对我它就像真实星球 虚幻总会实现
相信我 有话要说 我的呼吸 我的叹息
我的话都为妳说 我的努力 我的放弃
我每步都为妳走 在妳梦想的边缘
总有一个人 一直为妳为妳 守候着它
我所有的 我没有的 我一切都是妳的
我得到的 我失去的 我拥有都是妳的
妳也许无法了解 我给的爱己超乎我以为我能够给的
在遥远星球 有一颗气球 发出来的光芒
一直提醒我 为你祈祷 看你睡着 平安很好
对我都很重要 妳的微笑
妳的吵闹 都是我向往的 依靠 yeah
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Monday, June 14, 2004
Was doing the SCGS prelim paper for E Maths until 2 plus, when I made the trip to my brother's room to watch England vs France with him lol. Talked a lot of stuff with him, quite fun lah. Nowadays hardly get a chance to communicate with him. Either at camp or go with with girlfriend and stuff lah. But still good relationship with him lol. Nice brother. Watched until close to 5. Then went to sleep. Woke up at 2.Yep quite crazy. But not a bad match. England unlucky, leading until stoppage time let Zidane score a freekick and a penalty. Just within 3 minutes the scoreline went in favour of France. Felt that England deserved at least a point. Played better than France in a way.
Got so many problems...feeling really angry at times lor. Seem to forget my anger after just a while lor...feeling nowadays flare up easily...probably because have some things that really can't get off my mind. Feels like a double-edge thing, both sweet and bitter.
I think gonna type the zuo wen out, lazy to write...just hope Wang Jun doesn't say anything about it. Suddenly got inspiration for the compos, nice inspiration. Very nice. But a bit cannot decide to concentrate which part. Second compo I think have rough idea on what I wanna write also...Hope for the best.
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Sunday, June 13, 2004
Don't know why blog so many times today...feeling damn pissed. Stupid parents. Whole day talk behind our backs. Damn irritating. Always complaining behind our backs. Overheard them talking about my brother. Was damn annoyed lor, then scolded them. Seriously sick of this kindda stuff, got anything to say why don't tell him straight in the face. Clear everything up rather then talking behind the back.
Next came my darn father. Say what whole day use com to play around and stuff...cannot use com to do important stuff lor. Like that want com for what sia. Might as well just sell it off. Damn irritated and damn angry. Can feel my blood boiling lor...so fast got stupid things happening to me liao. Can't even get some concentration on my work lor. They think they very concerned about my work but whole day blast the damned tv and I in my room a bit affected only. Seriously feeling tired of them liao.
But must keep calm...so much stuff happening, cannot let my poor mood affect them. Hopefully things will get much, much better.
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Lol, Spain won Russia 1-0...saw almost the whole of the first half, played not bad but never converted their chances. Anyway just woke up...Slept at 4 or something. Could've watch teh whole match actually but nvm. Take the chance to blog now because don't know later whether got chance sia...father like quite pissed with me going out the few times this week. My brother also maybe will hog the com after coming back from his soccer game. So maybe won't blog or be online after this? Guess I'll hardly be using the com already.
Anyway hope things go well...
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To add to the post just now...Really enjoyed myself yeah. A really special day to be remembered for me...Realised this week really a good week for me, after so much trouble and problems. Really nice. ULP campfire, went out with primary school friends and now this. Really nice time out there. Lucky week for me heh. Tired but enjoyable but my stomach acting up again, of all times...But I still liked everything that happened today =D.
The match just now was pretty good for a starter to the Euro. Portugal vs Greece. 2-1 to Greece. Felt that Portugal could've done better. But poor Cristiano Ronaldo, come on sorta gave away a penalty by clashing into the Greece player. He scored in stoppage time but too little too late. Portugal could've converted their chances lahzzz...Not their best game but alright. Sub off Rui Costa for Deco, not bad but could've left Rui Costa on for more flair. But I liked the spirit of Portugal. Despite losing out till the last minute, they never gave up, for the honour of their country. Even though they lost on home soil, I felt that their spirit was magnificent. Really Greece had goals that were avoidable due to some sloppy defence...
Don't think can watch Spain match at 2.35...sigh...sianz...was looking forward to it, anyway hope Spain wins =).
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Saturday, June 12, 2004
Tired...went out in the afternoon, tired sia. Lol...Euro 2004 opening match starting liao, happy =). Got things to do liao haha. Anyway really looking forward to the matches. Think can only watch a few though, cos gotta mug, but of course try to watch as many as possible haha. Go Spain, supporting you, must win...hopefully my stuff works yep. Anyway nothing much to say just that very tired lol. Hopefully can make it through. Also gotta start mugging liao hahz, take things more seriously.
Good luck to everyone for everything, lol. Go watch Portugal vs Greece soon, hope Greece win yeah cos you know Spain in the same group.
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Friday, June 11, 2004
Woke up quite late. By then left a while before I had to set off for the tuition, cos today extra lessons for Physics. Going pretty fast. Finished up CRO today and learnt some stuff on electrical circuit. Think called semiconductor diode. Sorta fast than school liao. Should've extra lessons lor. Must finish the syllabus...anyway after that went for lunch, ate in hawker centre heh. Cos budget.
Continued the Physics then came to Chem. Today very quiet, the TKGS people not there, peaceful. The dynamic trio also not there, so even more peaceful. Rare occasion, haha. Quite fun lah hah. Talk cock to Vishnu and Kennick all the while. Of course got absorb from the lessons. Miracle that I wasn't that tired lor. Didn't sleep that much. But still feeling alright. But learnt quite a lot of things and Mr Sim already finished the Chem syllabus liao, so can start on revision next week =). That's great.
Now more concerned about my A Maths, still damn bad. Finish my holiday homework first then see. Cannot slack anymore lah, must go all out to become a mugger like Alex...lol. Eh good luck to the sec 3s for their gold accred anywayz, they better not fail or become even more "useless"...
Anyway hope tomorrow will be good.
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Thursday, June 10, 2004
...wonderful, just now cannot load then my post all gone...must retype..? Slept quite long today but still very tired. Tomorrow got extra tuition class for Physics and then start at 1.30, all the way to 6.45 like that...a bit long, by the time reach home sure faint one.
Hopefully sec 3s have already started to pull up their socks liao, or else sure goner. Said they resolved their problems liao, anyway gotta speak to them about some things still, cos they are still too immatured to take over I guess. Can see the potential but they're not really using it.
Euro 2004 coming soon. Yeah, hoping for Spain to win whereas most people rooting for England or Italy...think I special hahaz...but really can't find much people supporting Spain? English football prevails in Singapore probably because it's being telcast a lot locally.
Hopefully it'll be a good day.
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Wednesday, June 09, 2004
Eh...woke up late as usual, lol. But never late for class, as usual again, hahaz. Continued revision on some sec 3 topics. Only 5 people attended. All from 4J one lol. Don't know where the sec 3s and 4B peeps go.
Stayed in school, slacking all the way. Lol, playing some game with Wei De and Edwin. Funny sia. Totally owned the game hahz. Quite dumb. Rushed home and got drenched in the rain, quite cool. Cooling indeed. Not that wet though, coz I ran from the bus stop.
Waiting for rain to subside. Wait like free. Ben not at home >_<, diao then like cannot tell him I'll be late? When finally got to him, he said QC there liao. I was like -_-", gimme one hour to reach there...Welyon supposedly was 'on his way'. Yeo when I reached there Welyon seemed to be still 'on his way'. Funny sia. Saw him online...-_-""". A bit the fast. 15 min walk only still drag so long?? Anyway went to watch movie at 6 yepzzz. So ended slightly later lor, reached home like 9 plus. Was dying on the bus. Realised that when met at Ben's house, they all can walk there and I was like take 1 hour to reach... ...Anywayz, enjoyable. Although really normal gathering and never do much, still always nice to be with primary school friends.
Dead tired on the bus and MRT and bus again. Quite angry with some stuff but still a good day. Tired...not much strength left when even typing this blog...maybe because of my 'zi zhu xun lian', heh. Wanna get to become like Kennick like that, but it's really difficult, hahaz.
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Tuesday, June 08, 2004
Slept at 2 or later I guess. Tired siazzz...woke up early morning to attend E Maths lessons. Woke up slightly late...thought I'd be late...ended up Mr Zuraimi late again. Yesterday say heavy traffic today no excuse heh. Anyway he said tomorrow mixed class with sec 3s...doesn't matter I guess. Revise quite some topics...know most of the stuff hm...and not too difficult, except a few questions here and there must rack my brains.
After that stayed in school and did homework and tuition work...but not very productive because too tired liaoz. Lunch walked to Siglap Centre eat chicken rice...a bit waste time and energy. Anyway talked a lot on the way, heh. So much stuff going on, so go babbling on and on.
Tuition was alright, as usual. Continued on definite integrals. Thought she'd go on to area under a curve, got touch a little on it lah but not really significant. Don't know...got so much homework to finish also don't know how to continue.
Tomorrow supposed to go movie with Benjamin and Welyon yepzzz...Hopefully Qicong going as well hahz. Primary school gathering. Fun. Always nice to meet up with each other once in a while. Anyway all's not confirmed lah. Tomorrow got last lesson on E Maths, so probably going as well. Think they got lessons until afternoon, so maybe go out until night?? See first. Looking forward to it ya...
Getting all prepared already. Maybe soon...?
Hehz...yesterday forgot to say stuff ya...Cedric was like scaring Yiping with 'ghost stories' and stuff lah. Maybe they two got something hahaz. Probably will not get to see any of the people in a long time, yep, so a bit don't know what lahzzz. That's why stayed till the end and left together with the last bunch of people. Memories of the past yesss....
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Monday, June 07, 2004
Whoa...fun was the word to describe my night. Slowly describe lah. Still got reflections heh. After the last blog, Went fooling around with the com, then slept for 2 hours. Or rather lay on the bed for 2 hours. Tired sia. But cannot sleep >_<. Really sad when tore open the wrapping for my unit leader's shirt. Ya, couldn't bear to open it until today, but it was worthwhile.
Met at Kembangan MRT. I was slightly late, but considered early compared to others ya. Reached there still early, even thoough supposed to reach at 7.30pm. Feels really good to be together with your old course mates. Sat there for the campfire. Sorta dead. The enthusiasm within the cadets like damn fake like that. Then Freddie and Sarah spoiler as what Yee Long says. Scream, scream, scream, the other give snide remarks and ya. Feel really good. Fun also. Got a lot of stuff and performances lah but not very entertaining. Their course 'identity' is damn cool. ULP!! Use their right fists tap their hearts twice, raise their hand and shout hah!!...heh. Nice. But I also like our one. Ualacas!! Yehah!! Nice also.
Saw some girl wearing our red cross shirt!! Quite nothing to say. She say Elias lend her one. Didn't know Elias so fierce sia. Btw, think he got some...better not say lah but no good lah. Illegal. Anyway, think I'd probably not let anyone who isn't a Victorian to wear my shirt yah...True Victorian Passion. VS all the way =)!!
Heard from Vincent sir and Jian Fu sir that this year the standard of AOP is low!! Proposal five sheets of paper enough liao...our time 50 sheets also maybe not enough lo. Although one week only, but still the standard of proposals really low. Remembered my group was Alpha. Then that time also given one week for don't know how thick a proposal. Lucky did pretty alright ya. Jian Fu sir got photographic memory. Can remember almost eveyrone's name lor. Especially the Alpha and Bravo peeps. Really like him as an officer, nice guy and friendly. Seriously haven't really seen him very, very fierce before. In charge of discipline, haha.
Prepared to eat after the campfire and performances. Seriously not fired up enough, the atmosphere. Lawrence sir not there, heh, he the best for campfire. Talked some time to Vincent sir with few others. Feel inspired by him. Really, one of the few officers that I respect in HQ. He's really good. The way he does things and his speeches. Really magnificent. Alpha, only got Elaine, Kai Lin, Xiu Wen and me went yep. Wei Jun, Amru, Yu Ting, Judy and Melvin don't know where. Sad...no Alpha reunion. But also talked a lot to Jian Fu sir, heard a lot of stuff. ACOC, ULP, ULC everything lah. Say what my name sorta sometimes discussed by them...then dowan to reveal what they say. Anyway, thinking of joining ACOC and VIP, cannot confirm yet but interested. Heard people who passed ULC exempted from some stuff...lol =). That's good news. Heard ACOC only got two contact sessions. That's short. No camp even. Talked so much so much. Couldn't finish.
Anyway I hardly ate. Didn't feel like eating at first, then later talk until so interesting don't wanna turn away from it. Sad that Aaron and Daniel Yew missing out on such a great experience. Their loss. Feel ULC the best course I attended. Only attended EVIC and ULC. Although ULC had less sessions but lived together as one in the camp, EVIC couldn't feel the bond at all. The bond is still there. Vincent sir said this was the only year they never sent out official letter for invitation of ULC people and the turnout rate was the greatest. Most people only knew last night...Feel so proud of ULC. And we are the only batch to be named ULC. Units' Leaders Course. So nice lor. So many thoughts.
When at campsite really feel all the past fond memories coming back to me. Feel inspired to write biography of Red Cross life heh. Also feel inspired to write my speech for POC liao, hahz. Really so much to say. Just gotta love the course man. Hopefully if everything turns out well, will see everyone again in ACOC and VIP. Perhaps...feel like joining but not confirmed until then. Yep. Really great. Ualacas!! Yehah!!
Really made my day rocket to the skies. Happy. Although still got a part of me not feeling so good.
Tomorrow E Maths remedial yep, nothing to do with me but still wanna go after attending today's one. Good revision, no needa worry about E Maths liao. After that maybe study in school until time for A Maths tuition. Yep, that means Thursday no have. That reminds me so much work not done yet...T_T. Nvm, go school do hahz. Think still got stuff to say, but guess enough liao hahz.
Just hoping for the best to turn out...
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Today super shag sia. Actually slept at one budden i think until 2 plus then really sleep. Woke up at 6.30 like that, a bit buay tahan. Went school pass the tape to Adriel. Yeah...realised got E Maths remedial today and since got nothing to do until Higher Chinese make up, so ya, went for it lah. Actually not bad. Mr Zuraimi go through the past topics and let us practise. Quite useful lor. Revision ya, no needa spend time revising for E Maths. Think tomorrow I attend also lah. Then go study with Teck Peng and Edwin, then go for tuition yeah...
Anyway after that the make up was like quite sian. Let us do some zao ju then go through another two chapters. Think now halfway through the textbook liao. But still need more make up leh. Tomorrow and Wednesday got the so-called English lessons taught by Mr Ang, don't know wth he gonna do. So make up cancelled. Say what school reopen then have make up. After that, went parkway eat with Teck Peng and Edwin ya. Nothing much lor. Walked around after that, trying to waste time for them, go in later for GSSP heh. Cunning. No one watch over them somemore. No point sia. Can go there just slack.
Whatever lo...think next week onwards everyday go school do work and study until four lah. Stay at home whole day sure slack one. Maybe go out occasionally, hahz...see first lor. Unless got some crap happen, which I seriously doubt so.
Anyway later got ULP campfire heh. Happy. A rare thing that makes me happy, ya. Come to think of it, meeting at Kembangan MRT at 7pm...In unit leader's shirt. Er...mine is still in the plastic lehzzz...couldn't bear to open it last time lah but a shirt is meant to be worn, ya, so guess I'll be wearing it later anywayz.
If got chance later come online again lah, doubt that I'll be able too anyway. Find it a miracle to be able to use com in the afternoon, yep.
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Sunday, June 06, 2004
Woke up at 12 today, heh. Actually woke up at 9 but went back to sleep. Don't know why so tired. even after sleeping so much still feeling tired lehz. Still got panda eyes...Hardly did a thing today lor...Use com, read comics etc. Only finished up the...I think Cedar Higher Chinese paper. And not full paper somemore. Cannot find the drive to study lehx...
Don't know why the ULP never invite us back for campfire lehz. Last year got. Pity no have lorzzz, wanna see how the new batch of leaders look like, heh. Brings back fond memories of ULC...sometimes was fun lah but still...don't know also.
Nothing much happened today other than feeling really tired. Tomorrow gotta go school early to pass Adriel the tape, if I had brought mine on Friday, I would be able to catch at least 1 hour plus plus more of sleep. Blame myself for carelessness lah. Anyway tomorrow cannot late, or else Adriel die sia.
Maybe gonna sleep earlier today? Don't know, see first. Gonna start doing the TK prelim 2003 liao. Although got answers...hahz, but don't plan to use ba. Think maybe check my answers only.
Lol, last minute got information that all ULC leaders invited to go to the ULP campfire, so happy =). heard from Elaine that the message was passed to Yu Ching by the word of mouth by Vincent sir. Anyway happy about it lah. But heard until 11 lehz, so late. No bus home. Think most people leaving at 9 ya. So I see first lo.
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Saturday, June 05, 2004
Had some good sleep at last. But then still feeling tired lehz. Woke up liaoz washed up then read comics, heh. Nowadays cannot use much of com so stick to my wonderful comics. Did some A Maths work on integration...tired until almost dozed off several times...sick sia. Still got a lot of holiday homework not done lehz. Don't know how sia, and then think by the time I finish the holidays gonna end liao. No time to study lehz. Kaoz, don't know what to do sia.
Nothing special happened today...except the stupid tv came lorz. Last time bought the tv buy one day got problem liao, don't know what kindda tv izzit man. Now send new replacement one, but different type. Stupid parents so picky, think not nice then wanna change, lame sia. So demanding.
Feeling damn bloated. Don't know why also. Didn't really eat that much. No appetite to eat dinner? See first, some duck plus rice. Really don't feel like eating lor. Maybe one or two hours later? Feeling damn tired. Maybe go take half an hour nap...hahz. Not enough lah. Think I just sleep earlier tonight lah...
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Friday, June 04, 2004
Was damn tired, had a close to sleepless night again. On the bus was like cannot sleep at all...then when got off realised Reyneth on the bus also >_<. Walked to the 'Maths Room' for A Maths remedial...now changed back to form classes liao. VERY HAPPY. No need lame walking around the school and wasting time liao. Really, like that some people also take chance to play truant...Anyway the remedial quite crap. Teach all the stuff that we know liao, not too difficult. Just that think need more practice I guess. Think less than half the people supposed to come came, in the end merge both classes...lame sia.
Realised everytime got important exams surely got problem with me...Last year end of year was sick, mid year this year also. Then now...sickening hardly slept for the last two nights lor. And then got sore throat somemore. Did quite badly for the stupid oral lahz. Envy Divyesh and Joshua sia, English so good, close to full marks leh. I'm so screwed sia...prelim leh...still so lousy. Throat really sore and feels raw...
After oral slack in the canteen, talk cock until tuition time then I go for tuition...Physics was...dono what to say, just revision for us...Btw Vishnu wore some jersey again. Wonder whether his closet full of soccer jerseys...Mr Sim damn lame sia. Say what I stare at him, eyes so big very scary -_-...dotz...nothing to say...
Quite angry, no mood to say anymore. The sec 3s I can consider quite failure. In fact very. Never had such lame and stupid problems before lor, not even in my batch or any other batch before. Think they need help from us lorx. Really crap lah. My batch problems I think not as bad as this even. Haven't even tkae over got problem liao. And our problem mainly Mrs Raj...I'm sick and tired of the sec 3s, feel like just leaving them to die and learn from their mistake. But think they can hardly make it. Next "chair and vice chair" are like don't know doing what. Think Mark doing most of the stuff now. Especially Aaron. don't know what's wrong with him. Anyway got huge problem with them. Feel like killing them...
Tired. Think I look like panda liaoz...@_@...can go zoo liao, exotic animal...Hopefully can get more sleep and...
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Thursday, June 03, 2004
Had insomnia sia...could hardly sleep lor. Thinking of so many things...then turn here turn there, cannot sleep still. Was damn tired in the morning lor. Also got some sore throat lehzzz...so pain until can hardly sleep. Ate a bit of breakfast and read comics, then did some tuition homework. Started preparation for the oral, yeah it's tomorrow and I have no idea how to prepare. Eat a lot of hacks sweet and drink a lot of water. Throat really hurts lor. Must be the bbq food last night...
Tuition was alright...integration and the definite integrals and stuff. Nothing too difficult, and did before in school liao, so no problem. Talked quite a bit with Ka Fai, at least now A Maths tuition sometimes not too sian or lonely. Must remember tuition next week is on Tuesday...Ms Amy got some stuff don't know then like that just change. but nvm, even better for me.
Tomorrow A Maths remedial from 8 - 10. 10.45am have to go hall report for Prelims Oral...sianz...I had better do well lor, I'd be damned if I cannot do well for the stupid oral.
Next Monday to Wednesday got Higher Chinese make up lessons from 9.30 to 12.00. Surprisingly its the only subject that have make up lor. Physics like damn slow, still no make up. Biology also like quite slow. Anyway I'd rather have more lessons lor, stay at home tend to slack a lot. Maybe I can go join Edwin in school and study lorz...Must finish my holiday homework first. Got quite a lot.
Feeling really lethargic. Perhaps need more sleep and tomorrow got oral somemore. Must be in high spirits also, ya?
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Wednesday, June 02, 2004
Woke up at 11am heh...actually wanted to watch England VS Japan at 3am but cannot tahan so slept on the dot at three. Anyway they drew 1-1 lah. Shinji Ono and Owen scored. Japan made us Asians proud heh.
Was damn tired. Woke up at 7am like that, father's primary school friend called...oh man...always so early call, not first time i woke up cause of him lah but nvm. Think it's good to still keep in contact like that. Hopefully next time when I become older still keep in contact with my friends ya?
Woke up laze around eat some bread, then realised parents went out to buy lunch >_<...Eat until bloated sia. Then brother bring girlfriend come home use com...I stay in room do my A Maths homework seh...finish the differentiation part already too shag to continue liao. Then took nap heh...3 hour nap disrupted by two phone calls. My sleep always disrupted by phone calls...sigh...never sleep well lor.
Anyway dinner came at 9pm...late lah, quite hungry. All barbequed food. Can get cancer sia. Didn't know today cousin's birthday lah. My parents never wake me up to go, so didn't go lor, a bit the paiseh...
Read comics all the way liao, didn't feel like doing the integration work...tomorrow got A Maths tuition. Damn sian. Go all teh way to parkway just to attend tuition classes. 5.30pm to 7pm somemore. Even worse lor, this kindda timing. Sianz...Haven't do tuition work yet. Tomorrow before tuition go look through my file and do first lor...
Feeling a bit sad lah but nvm, just be happy and hope for the best k!?
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Tuesday, June 01, 2004
Today I damn slack sia. Finish up my E Maths November 2002 paper then start doing the A Maths homework only. Quite far from completion. Some questions concerning sec 3 stuff totally no idea sia. Gotta practise hard on them. Btw gotta do my tuition homework liao, Thursday and Friday coming. So fast half a week of the holidays gone...must make use of my time and work hard.
Lost of concentration sia. Thinking of so many other things. Friday already Prelimes English Oral liao. Don't know what to do?? Don't know what to say. Nothing much to say lor, because whole day cooped up at home, never do much. Tomorrow Vesak Day?? Even worse sia...must work the whole day, don't know lah...Very distracted and listless. Cannot concentrate and focus. Very tired also, not enough sleep. Eat vinegar for no reason...hahz...
Free counter seems to be back heh...Hopefully Daniel Yew and Aaron Lim have found their groups...they had better be working on their proposals and stuff lah.
Thinking and hoping for the best...
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