Nothing wrong with today until Mrs Raj talked to me. Made me so damn bloody pissed lor. Hardly felt so angry in my whole damned life. Everytime angry because talk to her sia. Really killing me. Told her the camp probably cannot make it for some of the sec 4s then she bloody hell say what shit, make me damn angry. Say what CCA and academics we all cannot make it then what use parents as shield. Felt like punching her lor. Seriously our results generally quite poor then parents definitely also won't allow us to go for 3 days 3 nights camp. We do so badly for mid year liao sure some of our parents won't allow right? And they want us to study for our prelims lor. they are concerned about us. Santosh sir's batch passed out in May and never touch the unit at all lor. I mean we are still willing to help even after we pass out but Mrs Raj seems ignorant of it. And she bothered me even though Monday is O'levels Chinese. Does not concern me but she doesn't know I take higher mother tongue. She quite inconsiderate ah, if find Reyneth or something right surely kena distracted lor. Also never say we dowan to attend the camp, just said MAYBE cannot make it for the whole camp, seriously too demanding for us to be present there all the while. Some of us got what GSSP and then got remedials, make-ups. She think we very free. I also wanna go right??? We never plan for camp because she said dowan to have because of Sars and last minute when she wanted she told us very late then we embarked on the camp proposal and doing liao she suddenly say cannot. Sickeningly just say what pass the deadline lor, when obviously in our minutes still had a lot of time before deadline is up, damn irritating. Think she got something cannot make it then use this as excuse.
She make it sound like we are useless lor. We spent so much time and effort in the unit and she does not even recognise it. Damn unfair. Feel that she treats the previous committee and the sec 3s very well and biased against us. Say what never do anything for unit. Agree competition wise we not so good, we brought the unit's standard down and let the unit down as leaders. No doubts about that. But we have put in our utmost efforts in the unit and she doesn't know what we do. Understand that Santosh sir's batch did very well and we never do as well but she just scrutinise us like free. She only cares about competition lor. And not all the fault lies in us. Agree that we as leaders may not be good but I'd have to say why Santosh sir's batch was so successful was because of us also lor. Infoquiz Zheng Cai and Danny studied like mad, performed better than Desmond sir that's why got National 4th. For us, our sec 3s never perform and all the blame is put on us. Can say that our leadership is not as good, but still the problem also lies with the cadets. Feel that we as cadets even surpass Santosh sir's batch as cadets. Sure we haven't got such a good attitude as them but we do more and work better. The Talentime Drama can say we won it on our own lor, never needed their committee to step in and help except for some trainings. But when we let the sec 3s do last year, they procastinated everything till the last minute and we had to force them to refine their scripts and all that. After that trainings also we had to organise all those shit for them. Then of course will affect the footdrill com also mah...wasted January and December on Talentime thanks to the sec 3s. Again all the blame on us. Explained to Mrs Raj still scold us, thinks she correct all the time. Everytime we wrong she scold scold scold, when she at fault she sometimes admit mistake but sometimes no matter how also don't admit. PMS? Don't know and don't care lah. Anyway really damn pissed. About EUA, sometimes the letters from HQ come in, by the time she take it and pass to us deadline already over or close to deadline already, then missed so many events and things, of course EUA got problem lah. Then Santosh sir's batch also never accrediate us for the badges then everything on us to do. Lucky Huda Mdm, Chee Keong sir and Yong Cheng sir willing to come down twice just to help us lor, or else even worse. Just feel that everything is on us, kena blamed for everything that happens and she never looks deep into what happens lor. Just wanna say our efforts are hardly recognised and furious about Mrs Raj. Really unreasonable and demanding. We may not have done as well as Santosh sir's batch but we have put in our best efforts lor, we have tried hard and worked hard as well. But things just do not always go our way and there are many factors as to why we failed as committee and our lack of achievements.
Don't feel like writing anymore about today lah...too angry to relate today's events lo...generally okay lah.
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